It's easy to think that as soon as you begin to eat normally/regularly or begin to gain weight, then all your problems will be gone. However there is more to recovery than just eating or recovering physically, and I wish that more doctors and therapists etc would remember this.
A person can eat regularly or eat like "others " but still struggle emwith an eating disorder. Only be half recovered or as I say "a functional sufferer", where you can sort of live life, sort of fuel your body but still struggle alot in silence.
It's up to you to be honest with yourself. Sure maybe you can eat normally with others but once you are alone maybe you restrict or binge? Or maybe you eat... but only certain foods and only the foods you deem as good or healthy and you never eat at restaurants or still count calories and macros.
You need to ask yourself whether your way of eating is holding you back in life or whether it's a maintainable way of eating.
But also to be honest to yourself and others if you are still struggling. Ask yourself what behaviours you still use or whether any behaviours or habits you have are ones that are done out of guilt and anxiety ? Recovery is about changing your mindset, thoughts and behaviours. It's a continual progress where you need to reflect upon yourself.
Just because you can eat doesn't mean you are recovered. Just because you are a normal or almost normal weight doesn't mean you are recovered. Just because you can go to school or work doesn't mean you are recovered. Recovery comes from the inside... and YOU will know when you are recovered. You don't need to prove that you are recovered, instead you need to feel it and know within yourself that you are free.
Some behaviours take longer to change and some thoughts still last a long time. But you can be free, as long as you don't just accept half recovery instead work on the actual problems.
Remember that recovery isn't for your family, it's not for your partner, it's not for your dog or for that trip you wanted to go to. Recovery is for YOU. Recovery is for your health, your life and your happiness. You have to want to recover, you have to want to change... not just pretend to be healthy but live a sad life and struggle in silence. Recovery isn't just the exterior,it's all about the interior... about your thoughts and why you do things and how you think about yourself.
You have to want to recover and have to want to change even if change can be tough at times, it is worth it in the end!
Think about your habits. Ask yourself why you do things in life.... I constantly have the habit (or well on a 3 month basis), of asking myself why I do things in life and whether they are helping me towards my goals or holding me back or if I ever unconsciously form habits that are negative to myself or my goals, then I need to change them. But also it makes you more mindful to do this. Can make you more aware of why you do things or why you have different routines or habits!!