Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
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Tuesday, October 18, 2016

Not feeling as full as others- eating disorder recovery

I got an email wondering about feeling full and how they dont feel full as easily as others and when they eat they always eat more than others.

I can start off by saying that this is exactly the same way for me. I always eat more than my friends and family, no matter if its lunch, snacks or dinner my portions are always bigger than those around me. And that is because

1) my body is used to eating bigger portions which happens during recovery - and its NOT a bad thing.

2) you get used to eating frequent meals meaning that you will often feel hungry every 2-3 hours when others might eat like 3 or 4 times a day and it can go 6-8hours between meals. (sounds crazy i know!! XD)

3)Your body might need more energy than others

4) You trust your body enough to eat the food and energy it needs

Many 'normal' people dont actually eat alot and can eat quite infrequent meals. Some of my friends eat practically nothing for lunch and it always surprises me, how do they not feel hungry? but i dont know what they ate before or going to eat later so i dont judge. But also they might just not be so hungry. Just because they eat little doesnt mean that they have an eating disorder as eating disorders are mental. However another reason why some people might not eat alot is because they count calories and so they dont allow themselves to eat more.

During recovery if you need to gain weight or start following a meal plan then you eat regularly and you eat big meals - you eat the energy your body needs and if you need to gain weight you eat more and your body gets used to it. It adapts... if you think about pre ed you might not have eaten the same amount that you do now... but you managed that way. You kept your weight... just like you might maintain your weight now while eating double the amount you used to eat. The body adapts which is the reason why you can eat alot compared to others but you still maintain your weight.
  Instead of seeing it as a bad thing that you eat more than others see it as a good thing... you are giving your body the energy IT needs. Forget the amount that others eat... some of my friends eat like half a chicken breast and a potatoe for lunch while i eat a double portion of fish, sweet potatoe/rootfruits and vegetables. But i am not eating 'too much' even if it looks like alot to others, it isnt because i maintain my weight meaning that i amnt eating too much or too little, but just right.

So its important to look at things in context and perspective. Everyone is different, everyone needs different amounts. If someone comments about the amount you eat then tell them that you are eating what YOUR body needs and that everyone is different. Remind them that they dont know what you have eaten or will eat... so they shouldnt judge you, just like you dont judge them.

Below are posts about how to deal with getting food comments

Remember that food ISNT something bad or something to feel guilty over. Its what your body needs and everyone needs different amounts. You should be happy that you can eat alot and maintain your weight! Trust me, it is something which i love!!!

So keep eating the amount that you know you need and feel sorry for those people who eat tiny amounts either because they dont feel hungry or are counting calories or feel like they cant eat alot. Its a pity for them, instead you should enjoy your food in the amount you need it :)

1 comment:

  1. Its all about being able to ignore comments (if you get them) isn't it? something I find very hard.
    How long was it into your recovery that you became accepting of needing bigger portions than you were used to? meaning how long was it before you could go from eating very little because of your ed to eating properly and because you wanted to?
    I suppose this comes naturally in time - that you start to eat what you want rather than the weights and measures on your meal plan? sometimes I think those days will never come for me