Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.
I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!
If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: firstname.lastname@example.org
Monday, October 24, 2016
Monday and a new week - thinking positive and being social
Hello everyone :)
After a not so great weekend where i was burdened with alot of negative thoughts and feelings as well as alot of anxiety, i was ready for a new week. Ready to just start fresh and try to get myself together and focus on the new week and be productive.
I woke up early at 6am, filled with energy and ready to make the day great. I started with my daily cup of coffee, medication as well as some journalling and positive thinking. Writing my goals for my life and for my week, and then it was off to the gym.
Its funny how just a few days off from the gym/strength training and once i get back to it i realise just how much i love it. I love all forms of exercise but running and the gym are my absaloute favourite... I am always so happy when i get to workout and exercise. Its not a chore or a "Have to", but something i love to do. If i ever dont feel motivated to workout then i dont, and thats what makes exercise such an enjoyment for me as its something i choose to do because i love it and WANT to do it. So after my morning i was filled with energy and ready for the day and ready for a super breakfast.
However then once i had eaten breakfast and was sitting in the kitchen trying to study i felt so incredibly unmotivated, i didnt want to go to school. I wanted to cancel all my plans for the day and the week and just not study and not do anything. Just lie in bed and refuse to do anything.....
But i got myself together and headed to school as it was an obligatory laboratorium we were doing, and once i got to school i was glad i did. I had a great time talking with friends as well as the laboratorium being interesting and fun to do. And also i had plans to meet a friend (who is in another gorup) after school. I was super happy when she had suggested we meet up and do something as i feel like i need to do more than just go to school, workout and be at home.I need that extra social life and meeting people outside of school.
So today we ended up walking to my house and we bought some food on the way and made dinner and then just sat and talked. The hours just flew by and it was really nice to feel like i can talk to someone and its not strained or quiet or awkward. Also we did get into the topic of eating disorders and she has had an eating disorder in the past/still struggles at times, and i actually admitted that i had struggled with an eating disorder which was SO STRANGE for me to do. I never do that... i mean it took almost 6 months for me to admit to my exboyfriend that i had struggled with an eating disorder, and now after just 2 months of knowing a person i was ok with telling her. However i guess i just feel more open about it, as well as her having an eating disorder herself so it didnt feel strange. But also we were talking about how common it it that people suffering with eating disorders study things such as nutrition or dietician and how some of the things we learn could be triggering for someone who is sick. But also we talked about how there are unfortunatly some people in our class who may have an eating disorder, but also speculated about how many in the class had or have an eating disorder... taking myself and her as example... 2 people who have had eating disorders and are studying the program.
Anyway, it has been a great day and i am now filled with positive energy for the week. I love spending time with people who give energy and make me want to be social instead of people who just drain me of energy and leave me feeling tired.
To end this post i need to recommend what we ate for dinner. It was my friend who made it and it was sooo good. Basically sweet potatoes mixed with lentils.
1) Cook up lentils with some water and at the same time microwave the sweet potatoe until it becomes soft.
2) Add spices to the lentils and when the lentils are cooked as well as the sweet potatoe mash it all together and it becomes like a sweet potatoe/lentil mince.
It was sooo good and i am going to make it many more times from now on!
Anyway, i hope you have all had a great day and have a great week!
Set up somegoals for yourself and fight for your goals!
And lastly, i have alot of studying at the moment so my posts might not be so often but if you leave questions i will try to answer them in posts when i have time :)