Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
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Tuesday, October 4, 2016

Exercise after recovery - comment

Comment: Working out twice a day or 7 times a week is for athletes.. 2-3 times per week is a lot. I think your view on exercise is a bit distorted..?

First off, i know that exercise 5-7 times a week is alot, more than most people. I am aware of this. And exercising 3-5 times a week is the normal and recommended amount. And some people workout less - that is also ok.

For me, exercise is about enjoyment and fun, doing something i love and enjoy and makes me happy. It is part of my lifestyle and makes me healthy and happy. It has nothing to do with shaping my body, it has nothing to do with burning calories, it has nothing to do with compensating for eating. This can be hard to understand if you struggle with an unhealthy relationship with exercise - because then exercise is just guilt, anxiety, hate and calories.... but also you think "how can someone love exercise". Or maybe you have grown up in a family where exercise hasnt been a part of your life or you havent found a form of exercise you enjoy so for "you", exercise is just something you think you have to do and everyone else who exercises more than 3 times a week is disordered or obsesed or unhealthy, when that isnt always the case. 

Everyone has a different relationship to exercise and everyone has different lifestyles. I have grown up with a family that workouts and i have always been active so for me its just an obvious part of my day to exercise, not to mention that i need to workout for my CF health and i am lucky in the fact that i enjoy exercise and want to be active and dont have to force myself to do it, just to breathe properly.  I am not obssessed with exercise, it is not my whole life or my whole day. I spend 1-2 hours a day exercising, some weeks less, some weeks more. But it is nothing that controls me. If i am sick i rest. If i am injured i rest. If i dont have motivation i rest. If i dont have time to exercise, i rest. As long as it makes me happy, as long as i am motivated and as long as i have time i will continue to do the workouts i find fun.

You have to remember that everyone has different lifestyles and enjoys different things. For example if someone was really into music or really into theater and spent 1-2 hours a day doing that they wouldnt be called sick, disordered or obsessed... instead it would just be an obvious thing that they spend time doing what they love. Exercise isnt unhealthy - it is the mindset that determines whether its unhealthy or not. .The mindset and intention of the exercise. As long as i fuel myself properly and enjoy what i am doing i dont see a problem with it. I would never put exercise before my life i.e in the past i wouldnt travel because my exercise routines would be disrupted. Or i exercised so much that i had no energy for anything else in my life and THAT wasnt healthy, but now exercise is part of my life, not my whole life.

People need to understand that you CAN have a healthy relationship with exercise, its all about mindset and being honest to yourself. People need to stop labelling me as sick just because i exercise and need to accept the fact that i am healthy and recovered. But also remember that my family are the ones who saw me everyday and knew how much i worked out and they never saw it as a problem - the only time it was a problem was when i began to lose a bunch of unintentional weight, and then i did ALOT less exercise so that i could regain weight. Bbut otherwise my family dont see my lifestyle or habits as sick or disordered, and well... their opinion matter more than what anyone online says!

I dont feel the need to defned or clarify myself and i shouldnt have to, but i understand where your comment is coming from, but i guess i wanted to share my side as well!

So anyway... i just felt i had to answer this online, as maybe other readers have the same opinon, but i just needed to clarify, but also 2 readers left comments which i love and wanted to share as well:

"I don't think so. Different people. Different habits. Different lifestyles. People should do what works for them and what they want to do. And 2 to 3 times a week is pretty normal or average."

"Yeah, and I mean... it's a walk. Not like 10 mile runs. I go for three walks a day, because, dog. I guess I should give up my runs and yoga since I guess I'm clearly disordered....? Sometimes stuff just is what it is. some lives are more active than others. It's all a question of "what's your motivation?" And only we know the answer to that for ourselves. Activity on its own is not a problem. It's the potential obsessions and compulsions that are problematic. I LOVE running and would do it every day if my body allowed. However, my body wouldn't approve, and if a whole week passes without an opportunity to run, it's no big deal to me. I just appreciate when I CAN get out there. So, am I disordered? Should I stop walking my dog because I'm "overdoing it"? I eat plenty to support my level of activity. Last night i ate pie and ice cream in bed. Today i cant exercise at all due to working a double shift. I have a yoga class later this week that happens to be on a day when I'll be able to run in the morning, so I'll likely be doing both. Plus the dog walks. It just is what it is, you know? Recovery, especially years down the road (like myself, and like Izzy) is different than early recovery. The level of "policing" is diminished or gone entirely. Balance happens. Motivations change. Things like food and exercise lose their gravity in our minds. They become just food and exercise, no longer loaded with emotional weight and taking up space in our brains. It's actually a very lovely space to live in, and a gift of real recovery.

I don't mean to sound contentious in this comment, but I really want the message out there that real recovery is possible, and it means being able to live a life free from obsessing over food and exercise, freedom from policing and vigilance over our every steps, and a firm faith and trust in ourselves to take care of ourselves in a healthy way. I do not think that having a history of disorder needs to dictate our entire future. Sometimes I only eat a salad for dinner, and it actually means nothing. Sometimes I eat a double dinner, and that also means nothing. It is what happens post-recovery, it is what was my ultimate goal years ago. I eat, and I exercise, and it all basically means nothing to me. And now I've gone on way too long, I'm sorry, but i wanted an alternative point of view following that original comment."


  1. Hey Izzy! I totally got your point and unterstand you. (:
    Have you got some advice concerning working out while travelling? Because my situation is the following: I plan to spent a year abroad and do "Work&Travel" (on the Canary Islands). I am currently working out 3-4 times a week (lifting/strenght training) and I really enjoy it, how I feel and of course, yes, how I look (not super lean or "bulky" but fit). So I would like to keep this exercise a part of my life (and the healthy diet as well), even during Work&Travel in an other country.
    Have you got some tips? Or some thoughts, good sides, ... - I think this is a very interesting topic (:

    1. Hi, I'm not Izzy but I was in a similar situation last year. I spent several month in Rio de Janeiro and also some time in smaller towns in Brazil and I was able to find a gym even in small towns on the country side. They offered part time memberships, so I didn't have to subscribe to a 12 month membership but for the amount of days, weeks or month I wanted to. Before I went to Brazil I was worried about how to be able to stick to my workout routine since I work out 5-7 days a week and didn't want to miss out on that because I just love this lifestyle. But it was absolutely no problem at all to find gyms and working out although I was traveling across the country was suprisingly uncomplicated. I'm pretty sure there are gyms on the Canary Islands and you can subscribe there! Maybe you can do some google research on that in advance. I was also a bit worried about the food in Brazil since I like eating healthy and of course the food is very different there, but after a while I managed to find my "healthy brazilian diet". Don't worry too much about the food though, you might not find every type of food you know and like from your home country, but it's also fun to try out new exotic foods (for example, I had fresh mangos and melons every morning in Brazil!) and you should try out lots of local dishes! It's all about adjustment and being open to new things, you're gonna find your way to live the lifestyle you enjoy even abroad. Have a safe trip with tons of fun :)

  2. Hi Izzy, I completely agree with everything you have said in this post and even though working out 3 days per week may be the average amount, this doesnt mean its the right amount.

    The Australian physical activity guidelines state that in order to have optimal health,people should be active on most, preferably all, days every week.

    Of course it would not be healthy for someone with an eating disorder to exercise 6 or 7 days per week but for those who have recovered, it is totally healthy. :) I just wanted to share this as it is something I feel very strongly about. <3