Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email:


Tuesday, September 6, 2016

My day, what i am studying (My program), positives of the day

Hello and good afternoon!! :)

Today has been such a strange day... it feels like the day has been super long despite it only being 4pm right now.

Yesterday in my vlog i was going to talk about how since i went vegan i havent had so much stomach pain - if you have been reading my blog for a while you will have read about all the awful stomach pain i was having daily/weekly for the past year. But since i went vegan i havent had that form of stomach pain or not as regular anyway (having CF means that naturally i will deal with quite a bit of stomach pain/digestion issues). (Also, i do think my stomach pain had alot to do with my stress and anxiety and guilt i was dealing with at the time. So this is something to think about... whether your lifestyle/mental health are the reasons for your physical pain or discomfort). However, yesterday night i had so much stomach pain which was due to some anxiety/stress but also eating a whole lot of fiber so my stomach was cramping all evening and night and that continued this morning as well. So in the morning i felt undecisive, unmotivated and just a lack of everything, hahaha. But i got myself together, went to the gym, went to school and had a 2 hour long seminar (which includes discussions about an article we read and the answers we had written) and my plan was to continue sitting in school and get some emails and work done. But after my seminar i was still so tired and unmotivated and didnt want to do anything so instead i headed home, ate a huge lunch and just gave myself some time to lie down and not feeling any pressure to do anything. And after that i decided to sit in the sun, bring my computer with me and somehow i got a whole 90 minutes of work done and it feels great now!!!

I am definitely on top of things when it comes to studying and i feel myself getting back into the study and university life, but not feeling stressed either. Not at the moment!!

Ive been asked - so many times! - what i am studying, and i am studying a 3 year program called health promotion with focus on nutrition. This first course, which is 4 weeks long i am just studying theories and how to write articles and will have a group project which will include a 10 page essay and a presentation as well as a test next week about scientific theories and article writing etc
   So this course/topic area isnt so fun for me. I just want to study nutrition, the body etc and not just about scientific theories or how to write essays, even if its important and will help me. But for now i am just doing the work and looking forward to my next courses!

My program includes learning about nutrition, physiology, food in culture/related to illness, nutrition and exercise, public health, coaching, health promotion both physically and mentally, health comunication, epidemiology etc etc So i am really looking forward to these 3 years, and in my 5 th term i get to choose different courses so i might choose courses about exercise or about sustainability or even psychology courses as i think all of those are interesting and will benefit me in the future!!

In the past i was set on the dietician program but you know what... i dont actually want to be a dietician, i feel like this program and the courses i will study is more "Me" and what i want to do. But also when i get my bachelors or masters its more about me creating a job rather than already having a job i.e a dietician will be a dietician, but having studied health promotion that can lead to many different types of jobs in the future, so that is both scary and exciting to not have a set job career/path/option.

So that was just some information about what i am studying as so many people have asked!  At the moment i do have alot to study and also just feeling very strange - like mentioned at the start of my post - just sort of "out of it", so that is why it is taking so long to reply to comments on my social media and also emails. I am not ignoring you, i am just trying to find the time and energy to respond. So i aplogize sincerely and hope to get around to it soon!!! :) I do appreciate ALL your comments and thank you all so much for taking the time to read and/or comment or follow me on any of my social media, it means so much to me. But most of all, i hope that i can help you in some way :) And i of course read all your questions and try my best to answer them or make posts about them and also about topic ideas and what you want to see more of/less of :) Constructive critisizm is helpful and helps me improve :)

I hope you have all had a great day and to end this post, my postives of the day (and share yours in the comments below!)

- Sunshine!! Being able to sit outside and study.
- Being productive and getting my work done/feeling accomplished.
- Seeing hares in the front garden!! It makes me feel like a part of nature!
- Interesting lectures about sustainability and learning valuable information/new thoughts!
- Getting to finish early.
- My mum and step dad will visit Gothenburg in 3 weeks time which i am looking forward to!

(My hair was so blonde back then!!! I miss it, hahahah)


  1. I just wanted to say that you shouldn't feel pressured to write posts or reply to comments/emails if you don't feel like it, your health and studies are important too! Also, if you don't mind me asking of course, what is your natural hair colour? I am just curious hahahaha :) Good luck <3

  2. Thanks for explaining your programme, it sounds very in-depth and interesting. I hope you enjoy your time spent studying it and I`m sure you will find yourself in an awesome career on completion :)
    Sorry to hear you were struck with more tummy pain but you did the right thing by resting as much as you could. Sometimes its just a case of down tools and sit it out, theres nothing else you can do. Hopefully it was just a blip and you will continue not to get so much of it. What do you think it is about about switching to vegan food that has brought somewhat some control over you getting pains?
    Hope you have a good rest of the week!

  3. My positives -

    Spending time playing with my new kitten - she is just adorable and I love her already!

    Its Autumn - my favourite time of the year - love the cool early mornings and the warm daytime sun, and all the beautiful colours from the falling leaves

    Had my disability assessment interview today so I`m just glad to have got that over with as its been stressing me out

    Going to cook salmon for my tea - one of my favourites

    feeling happy - for some reason I feel "content" and its a nice feeling

    made up my mind to start a study course so really looking forward to that

    my stickers to decorate my study stationary (I love novelty folders, notebooks etc) came today so I can get on and do that

    sunshine - it is glorious today and the brightness makes me feel good!