Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email:


Thursday, September 29, 2016

Happiness is everyday joys, not a far off destination

I’m beginning to recognise that real happiness isn’t something large and looming on the horizon ahead, but something small, numerous and already here. The smile of someone you love. A decent breakfast. The warm sunset. Your little everyday joys all lined up in a row.
— Beau Taplin • L i t t l e  E v e r y d a y  J o y s 

With happiness, it is so easy to think "i'll be happy when.....". People think happiness will come when they reach a certain weight or size, or when they travel away somewhere, or when they buy a new item etc

And sure, materialisic joy can bring happiness, and feeling more confident in your body from a change can bring happiness and so can travelling away. But you dont have to wait until you reach a goal or buy something new to feel happy. Happiness can be found in the smallest of things and you dont always have to look so hard.

For me i find happiness is the small simple things such as, 

Having time to go for a walk in the morning. 
When vegetables are cheap in the stores.
When i see rabbits in the garden outside my apartment.
When i learn something new whether its in school or from friends or from an article i read online.
Finding new music which i like.
Waking up without pain in my body.
Being able to breathe properly - the days that i can.
Listening to podcasts.
Seeing pictures of puppies or dogs.
When my mum sends me a daily picture or video of my dog, Daisy.
Phone calls with my family.
Having energy makes me happy.
Eating delicious and nourishing meals throughout the day.
When people tell me i have inspired them.
When people tell me that they are going to eat more plant based/go vegan.
Meeting friends.

So many things to feel happy about and it doesnt have to come from reaching a goal or buying something new. Because sure i feel happy when i buy a product/item i have wanted for a while, and i feel happy when i reach a new goal, but if i just sit and wait for those things to happen there will be alot of times where i dont feel happy. And ive spent far too much of my life feeling unhappy and stuck with a grey cloud over my head and the weight of the world on my shoulders, and i refuse to do that. Everyday i want to smile, everyday i want to feel happy... of course that isnt the case, i dont always feel happy. But i will try my best everyday to feel happy and think positive and try to smile. 

Dont waste your life feeling unhappy and negative. I know its not easy to just "change your thoughts" or to "just smile" especially not when struggling with depression, but depression recovery is possible and you can one day feel truly happy and smile again - and mean it! So just small simple things like trying to smile and not feel bad about it, and trying to see the positives will make a difference!!


  1. Hey, have you gotten my e mail? I was the girl telling you from the weird experiment and sent you some more information...

    1. I don't have so much time to check my emails at the moment due to school work. But I saw that you have sent an email anyway :)

    2. Ok, don't want to put you under pressure, I was just curious as my mail program isn't functioning all the time:)