Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Friday, September 9, 2016

Answers to previous comments - Antinutrients, measuring food in recovery, is meat and dairy healthy (?), supplements

What's your point of view on the antinutrients, such as phytic acid, common in legumes?
I learnt about them in my univeristy course during spring but i dont really think about them when i eat. However i do know that even though there is iron in beans or oats or spinach, there is also phytic acid which makes the absorption of iron even less (and the iron level is already less than in meat). So if a person has iron deficincy or even calcium deficincy it is important to be aware of the phytic acid in vegetables/beans but also in coffee, tea, chocolate etc There are ways to lessen the affect of the antinutrients such as sprouting and soaking vegetables (especially beans!) and also boiling/the way you prepare the food can lessen the affect. So if you do lack some type of vitamin or mineral it can be good to take those things into consideration, but generally speaking i dont think about them. However i also take supplements as well as eating alot i.e the more food you eat the more vitamins and minerals you will get into you.

I found an article about antinutrients if anyone is curious to read about it more:

 Also, if you don't mind me asking of course, what is your natural hair colour? I am just curious hahahaha :) Good luck 
I am naturally very blonde but from the ages of 13-16 i dyed my hair many different colours and from the age of 16 until now i have dyed my hair blonde on a regularer basis as my natural hair colour is darker now. However at the moment i am letting my natural hair colour grow out, though i do want to be "white blonde" again but dying my hair makes it all dry and doesnt look so good close up, haha.

The gym looked really good - very spacious. Is it often that empty though? Here they often become so crowded its difficult to get on the equipment.
Most gyms are usually packed at 11am-12pm and 4pm-6pm, so i avoid those times and i usually workout very early so then there arent so many people. And now i can vary between 3 gyms depending on what i want to workout, which is great!!

So would it be sensible to measure food when you first start your mealplan just so you get an idea of how much you should actually be eating - then move on to to just serving food normally?
I`m confused because my mealplan states measures for everything, should I follow that or not and just rely on my own judgement?

When i was in recovery/at Mando treatment centre i had to weigh all my food and i did that for about a year until i felt confident enough to stop measuring and just use eye measurements. So i would suggest you measure everything for a few weeks/Months and then over time start with not measuring yoghurt/juice/sauce etc and eventually begin to eat dinners and lunches without measuring and just using eye measurements. The measuring in the beginning is so that you eat enough and dont eat less than stated but also it can make you more confident and learn what "normal" portions are. When you struggle with an eating disorder you sort of lose your ability to judge what a normal portion or amount is, so it is best to measure and over time just use eye measurements (and not eat less just because you dont measure)

Very good advice! 
I have a question, do you eat high carb low fat actually Izzy? 

I just eat what i crave, no labels or restrictions or rules. I could never eat HCLF or LCHF, i need lots of carbs and lots of fat and of course my daily dose of fiber and protein! One of my favourite snacks is actually raisins and peanuts i.e both high carb and high fat..... The best diet for me, hahahaha.

Which youtubers do you follow? :)
Loads!! Example (in no particular order, just the ones that showed up first!): Pewdiepie, Supremebanana, BonnyRebecca,  Stella Rae, Clara Henry, Henya Mania, Ida Warg, Hot for food, Nikki Blacketter

What is your ideal day during a uni semester/term? Is it when things fall into place and essays flow for example or due to something else?
My ideal day..... Wake up at 6am, get ready and go to the gym, head to school for 9am, have lectures until 12/1pm, then study until 3-4pm, home and make dinner and then have time to eat, watch series, take a shower etc 
But my ideal day is when i am productive the whole day - when i have lectures to give me structure and then can just sit for a few hours after the lecture to work through my thoughts and my notes and work on assignments. And then to come home and just know that i have been productive and gotten my work done so i can rest the whole evening :)

I´m new to veganism/ blant-based lifestyle and habe a question for you (as a becoming noutritionist). I know the ethnical and environmental reasons to beacome vegan but are animal products really bad for you? Like most of the extreme youtubers like freelee & co say its so bad and all the fat makes you fat and so on.. I don´t take them to serious, but could you more scientifically explain why a plant based diet is better for the body? however I know that all the animal products are very processed and produced in huge amounts, so they have a poorer quality than i.e. 1000 years ago and i also know tha through a vegan diet you eat more veggies and fruits and stuff but what is it in the animal products that makes you sick? 

My honest opinion is that it is all about moderation. I am not vegan for the health reasons, i.e just because i am vegan doesnt mean that i eat healthy. There are some who are vegan for the health reasons and dont care so much about the ethical reasons. When you get down to the basics, meat and dairy and eeggs, just like potatoes, nuts and fruit still just protein, carbs and fat (and they can be broken down even further i,e different amino acids, different fatty acids as well as glucose, sackaros, galaktos,). When you look at the health aspects, it is about the amount eaten... and the problem is that many eat too much dairy and meat and eggs. All of those also have cholesterol which in too huge amount isnt good, and not to mention that antibiotics and such are consumed by the animals in factories and then they go into you when you eat them. Also when people grow older they can lack the enzyme that breaks down lactose which is why many can end up wth lactose intolerance as the body stops producing that enzyme i.e after breast feeding you dont really need the enzyme anymore... but in todays society so many people overconsume dairy and lactose. And when it comes to red meat, i am pretty sure most people are aware that it is bad and can cause inflammation and some forms of cancer (but once again, it is about the amount eaten. I.e if you eat red meat 2 times a year i dont think you need to worry about getting cancer from it). But now a days people eat dairy and meat 4-6 times a day and that is just FAR TOO much, and not to mention that it takes longer for meat to be digested compared to vegan options, and fruit and vegetables are alot more natural (in some sense... of course there is the whole GMO and organic topic which you can debate) and the body can break them down easier and they are less processed.
If you only care about the health aspects then i think you can be perfectly healthy and eat a healthy diet when you consume meat, eggs, dairy all in moderation (though meat can lead to inflammation in the body! Also, all the hormones in meat, dairy and eggs which then go into your body when you consume them. ), and if you compare for example just plain chicken with a vegan fake meat burger... well then the vegan burger will be alot more processed and extra added salt and ingredients etc 

But for ME.. i dont care about the health aspects. I will eat my processed vegan foods and eat my oreos and bread and live my vegan lifestyle because i am doing it for the sake of the billions of animals killed each year just for food and the millions of animals abused in circuses, zoos, parks etc As well as doing it for the sake of the planet (Of course, it can then be debated about the fact that vegan products contain palm oil which isnt good for the environment as well as all the imported food i consume which isnt good either). But anyway.... that was my "short" answer to a very complicated question which would require a 25 minute video just to say everything i want to say and answer the best way possible, hahaha.

**Also note, fat doesnt make you fat (so dont believe all that BS that many vegans say that fat is the worst thing to consume, because that isnt true. Of course there are different types of fat, and some people feel best when eating more low fat diets, but the body needs fatty acids to function properly i.e that is why we have ESSENTIAL fatty acids we need everyday.)
Its rather mind blowing seeing all the vitamins and minerals your body needs on a regular basis. I don`t think my current diet anywhere near covers them all. Is it enough to take a daily multi vitamin or should I aim to get the vitamins and minerals through my diet instead? which is best?
 You should focus on getting the vitamins and minerals through food first (and it really isnt hard as long as you eat varied!! and eat ALOT i.e the more you eat, the more vitamins and minerals you will get into you) But of course supplements can be necessary at times as well, for example if you are vegan it is essential to take a b12 supplement and even iron or D vitamin can be important. I personally have to take alot of supplements because of my CF and my body doesnt absorb vitamins or minerals so well, but i know that i get the majority of my requirements with food and then the supplements are just there to make sure my body gets extra so that it is all absorbed.
Focus on food first - especially in your situation (from what i understand you arent eating enough/eating the amount you should) so then the focus should definitely be on food first and supplements if necessary.


  1. Thankyou for answering all these questions and for your interesting comments Izzy - I`ve certainly learnt a few things!

  2. About the question on gyms - here I have noticed there are quite a few 24 hour ones opening up, do you think people would really use the gym in the early hours?

  3. Hi Izzy!
    I have a question for you. Due to anorexia I lost like half of my hair. I didn't have that thick hair begin with so it looks really bad now. I have been recovered and in a healthy weight (BMI 20) for about 2 years but I still haven't gotten my hair back. Also, I recently made a big mistake by dying my hair as it caused even more hairs to fall out. I don't feel like my daily hair loss is that huge, it's just the fact that there's no new hairs coming or they grow so slowly that it isn't making any difference.

    What is your experience with hair loss like? Did you get your hair back after recovery? What could I do to help it grow? I have had a huge fear of losing my hair since I was 3-year-old so thinning hair makes me very anxious and terrified. Could you please do a blog post about this or at least give some advice?

    1. Using a hair thickening/body shampoo is a good idea as it really does add volume to thin hair. Taking a specific hair supplement vitamin can be good too.

  4. I'm not Izzy, but I had to deal with a huge amount of hairloss during my anorexia. I had pretty thick hair before and lost A LOT during my illness. When I recovered it grew back to a certain extend, but not as thick before my ED. The reason was an iron deficiency which I had developed during my ED. Even when I was fully recovered and weight restored for a while, my iron levels seriously and dangerously low and I had anaemia ( and I only noticed the effects very slightly: tiredness, coldness, being exhausted, but the body adapts to it so you the effects won't knock you off as much as you might think!). It took about a year to fox that with weekly iron injections. My levels are normal now, but I still have to take an iron pill each day. My hair grew back thick and normal again. I recommend you to talk to your doctor and get your levels checked, if you haven't done that yet. There could also be a hormonal reason for your hair loss, but I'm sure they'll find out and your hair grows back! Good luck :)

    1. Thanks! There could be something wrong with my iron levels. Last time I had blood tests done there were less platelets in my blood than there should be. I'm going to have blood tests done soon so maybe this will be figured out then.

      I've thought about this hair problem and I guess my genetics could also play a role in this. I have similar hair to my mom and her hair is very very thin. Also, she tends to have hair loss when she's stressed out so maybe stress affects me too. I know I've been quite stressed for the whole year therefore it wouldn't be a surprise if stress was one of the causes.