Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email:


Sunday, August 28, 2016

Your eating disorder doesnt make you special

I found this post (below) on Tumblr today, and i thought some might need to read it or be reminded about it. Some of the text might come out as harsh, but sometimes that is exactly what a person needs.

Even if eating disorders arent about attention and many do as much as they can to hide all symptoms and hide that they are struggling, but they might also love the comments they get when people notice that they arent eating or that they have lost weight. Or get a kick of "energy" when they begin to get more attention even if it is negative attention, or maybe they even feel proud for having an eating disorder or like they are special. But i can tell you... you arent unique or special for having an eating disorder and it is nothing to be proud over. Something that you however CAN be proud over is recovering from an eating disorder or other mental illness. But struggling with an eating disorder... that isnt special, amazing or something to be proud of. But choosing to recover and everyday making choices to get your healthy life back, THAT IS inspiring!

Get attention for being YOU, for being amazing just as you are. Relish in the compliments of a healthy body, beautiful smile, more energy, better hair and skin and nails. Be proud of the things you can achieve in life, be proud over what you can accomplish and what you are good at, and even the things you try and fail at in life. Enjoy the compliments for a healthy body and be noticed for what you can do, not just for being super skinny or eating the least... those arent things to be proud over.


Do you want to know the truth? Here it is: your eating disorder doesn’t make you special.
Up to 1 in 10 college women suffer from an eating disorder or disordered eating. Eating disorders are among the most common chronic illnesses among adolescents. About 55% of the adult population is dieting at any given time.
Your eating disorder isn’t special. Millions of people have an eating disorder. You want to be special? You want to be noticed? You should want to be noticed because you’re kind, funny, smart, generous, creative, efficient, innovative, empathetic. You should want to be noticed because your personality is unique.
Don’t throw away your life just because you want someone to notice you’re skinnier than the average person. Eat your food, keep it down, and don’t overexercise. Find a way to be special that won’t fucking kill you someday." (


  1. Hi,
    I have a suggestion for a topic to write about: the need to be taken care of. How anorexia for some people is a way of being taken care of and - like in this post - feeling special. And how letting go if the illness is hard because that means losing this care (the fear is based on this to great extent). I know this is the case for some, and it would be interresting if you are able to write something about it :)

    Like how anorexia is a way of "stopping/pausing" life and what comes ahead in the future, and just "stay like a child" thatks to anorexia, with the care of others (parents or even the health care system, having people take care of you instead of having to take responsibility in your life).

    PS: I do not mean to step on anyone's toes here, I emphasize the fact that this goes for some people with anorexia (not saying anorexia is a choice at all!!)

  2. Yes - this would be interesting to read

  3. I have a question. I will be very grateful if you answer it. Is it healthy to become a vegan when you are still recovering from anorexia? I really, really want to start eating plantbased. You inspired me. Thanks for your answer. :) have a lovely day at the university!

    1. I think it is very individual whether a vegan diet works for someone in recovery or not. It can work, if a person does it for the right reasons and wants to be vegan for the ethical reasons and not just to eat a certain way and avoid certain foods. If you decide to eat vegan you have to eat ALOT and not just fruit and vegetables, bt all types of vegan food and realise that your body needs alot of energy bt also that you most likely need to eat double the portions compared to people who eat meat and dairy as well. Bt also to make sure that your body gets all the vitamins and nutrients it needs because during recovery your body is in extreme need of alot of nutrients and vitamins. Ipersonally think that a fully vegan diet should wait until after recovery - when a person is mentally and physically recovered and during recovery you can do other things to help the animals and the planet such as not buy products that have been tested on animals, dont buy leather or fur or skin. And maybe eat vegetarian a few times a week/ vegan meals now and again. But to not set up restrcitions in recovery, instead eat what your body craves. Because even if i dont personally promote eating dairy or meat - if you are craving that during recovery then eat it and dont feel guilty over it. And in the future when the time is right maybe you can eat a flly vegan diet as well as live a vegan lifestyle.

      So a fully vegan life and diet can work, but i think its better to not have any restrictions and instead focus on the other things you can do rather than focusing too much attention on food and what you can/cant eat.