Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

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Tuesday, August 23, 2016

You have the right to eat - and you need to eat

you have unconditional permission to eat. 
even if you feel fat.
even if you’ve gained weight.
even if you haven’t exercised. 
even if it’s a fear food.
even if you’re already sort of full. you’re allowed to feel full. you’re allowed to, and you deserve to take care of yourself.
even if you’re tired.
even if you made a mistake that you feel guilty about.
even if you’re having a really bad day.
even if you’re feeling unloved. no negative emotion takes away your right to nourish your body.
you can eat even if you’re about to wear a bikini.
you can eat in front of people.
you can order food and know that no one is judging you for what you order. and if they are, that’s on them. other people’s opinions of you are none of your business, and they don’t determine whether you can eat or not.
you can eat popcorn at the movies, even if your friend put more butter on it than you would have.
you can get chinese takeout with your friends.
you can cook dinner for your family and actually eat it with them. and enjoy’re allowed to enjoy the taste of food.
you’re allowed to feel proud of myself for finishing a meal, instead of feeling like you failed.
you’re allowed to look at food as nourishment. it doesn’t have to be a moral dilemma, or a battle with your mind every meal. 
a bag of chips is just a bag of chips, and you have unconditional permission to eat them. 

Source x


  1. lovely post/message

  2. Hi, so I know this will sound terrible or really sick or something, but last Christmas my dad got me a fitbit for sleep/running etc. and I've warn it religiously since then. But today at work I realized that I forgot to put it back on after I took a shower and it's killing me. I really want to go back and get it but I don't want to have to stay at work late. (I'm a student on a campus and it's about a 10 min. walk each way) I set my own hours so it's no big deal but it's been a rough few days and I just want to hang out in my room after work and not have to work late. But these rough few days have made me today not having it even more tough and I really want to go get my watch to minimize the time it hasn't been on my wrist (about 2 hours). I know this all sounds absolutely ridiculous but I really need it for comfort right now. It's been a weird few days with my boyfriend and I've been really emotional lately and am apparently on my period and I just can't not have my watch and not know the numbers...I haven't been calorie counting as much and have been eating more intuitively and have been more relaxed with eating but I just need to know how much I've burned. I know it's basically me justifying what I eat but baby steps right?...I probably sound like an emotional wreck (which I am) and I'm not sure if its the bf thing, my period or the watch but, and I'm not sure what I expect to get out of this comment but...I just really wish I didn't forget my watch...

    1. I have a fitbit aswell. It is pretty much controlling me, as opposed to the other way around. My psychologist has said that we will work on gradually getting to to point where I do not wear it at all. For a lot of overweight or just normal-weight people a FitBit is a great motivator for moving more, as opposed to being inactive. But with a mindset - just like in anorexia, not saying this is the same in every case - that can easily get cought up in numbers and reassuring and controll, things can get out on hand. Then a FitBit is not for you - unless you learn to not be controlled by it. Just some thought, not really a good answer to you though...

      Maybe you could do a post on FitBit or activity trackers in general, Izzy? That would be great :)

      Hugs to all <3

    2. Excuse my ignorance, but whats a fitbit?

    3. A FitBit is a brand of activity trackers. Like a watch you wear on your wrist and it tracks (depending on which type, there are several) resting heart rate, pulse throughout the day, caloric expendure throughout the day, sleep duration and quality, as well as excercise is tracked automatically based on pulse, and steps and kilometers walked etc. There is an app to sync the "watch" with, so you can see all these things. It is fun and motivating for more activity. Though it might not be that healthy as it is not very "intuitive" or so to say to have that much controll over enerything. Besides it has it's errors...

  3. Thanks for explaining that!