Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.
I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.
I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: firstname.lastname@example.org
Wednesday, August 3, 2016
When life begins to go my way and finding happiness again
It is Wednesday morning and i have had such a great morning and in general just a great few days. The positivity, happiness and energy is flowing. Whether it depends on the herbs i am taking, no longer taking birth control, weight gain, positive thinking or just that my life seems to be falling into place again, i dont know. But i am guessing it is a combination of things but at the moment and the past few days life has felt good. Apart from yesterdays work day where it was basically 8 hours of rude people, hahahah. But i dealt with it, i got home and had a lovely evening anyway.
Today i dont start work until 2pm (what a luxery!) so i have had a morning to do whatever i feel like, and that meant - a run!
The past 6-12 months i have barely run at all, but with new running shoes and the motivation of my race/run in 10 days time i decided to just go out and see how it felt. And it felt great!! I can highly recommend the Asics Kayano 22. They are perfect for me with high arches and are also so soft and cushioniong/shock absorbing so that my knees and hips dont hurt while running! It felt so great during my run, physically anyway... mentally my mind kept saying "arent you tired now, why not walk, do you really want to do this" but those thoughts stopped after 3km and the next 7km went pretty smoothly.
It felt so great to be back to running again, and just feel that "i never want to stop" feeling. So hopefully i will feel ready for the run in 10 days time!!
After that it was breakfast time and to do all the basic things like clean my room, new bedsheets, wash my hair, laundry etc which i dont get time to do during my other work days when i am too tired after work and dont have time in the morning.
Otherwise i am feeling more and more ready and excited for my autumn. I think i have found an apartment i can move into for the autumn! It is a collegue from my step dads work place who is hiring out a room and i might get to move in there - which i hope. Even if the rent is a little more than i had planned, it is atleast a start and i have somewhere to live to begin with so that i can start studying and then see what the future holds for me. So keeping my fingers crossed for that!!
I also have 2,5 more weeks of work and then i am done as i am leaving the last week free from work (even if i still have a contract that lasts until then) because i might need to travel to Gothenburg!
It feels like i have so much more to write but now when i am finally writing it is all gone from my head. But at the moment i feel good, i feel happy and feel like things might work out with less anxiety, stress and fear than i had imagined! Who knows what i am taking, but it seems to be working anyway because i do feel alot better mentally... for now anyway, and i am embracing that and learning to smile and enjoy this "at peace" feeling!
Ii hope you all have a lovely day and a lovely week and make the best of each day and keep thinking positive!!
The vegan cheese i bought = i love it!!! The 200g package will be gone in just a few days as i am eating so much of it. I was never a fan of cheese but this one is actually super good!!