Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.
I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.
I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: email@example.com
Sunday, August 21, 2016
Positive thinking - Depression recovery - feeling like myself again. Reach out for help and make the changes necessary.
Recently the positive thoughts in my head have been the predominant ones. There has been more peace, more happiness, more calmness and more joy in my head.
Wanting to sing along with songs, smile while out walking, feeling energetic while working out, feeling more positive about the future, feeling more positive about myself. Feeling happier in my body with my weight gain, feeling more like myself again and feeling more positive again. Not having to fake positivity, not finding it difficult to find the positives of the day, but instead just feeling happier!
It is wonderful to feel this way again, to feel more like myself again and not have to force some type of fake positivity out of me. But most of all, not feeling fake when i smile. Not feeling guilty or ashamed when i smile or laugh at a joke. Feeling content and not wondering when the bad days or negative thoughts will hit. Not feeling guilty for feeling happy. Feeling like myself and it is wonderful.
I just want to remind you all that the tough times you are going through, they will pass! You can get through them, you can get through the darkness. I dont want to get into the past, i dont want to think over the past 1,5 years.... it was one dark cycle with far too much negativity and i wasnt myself at all. I dont want to think about that time, but i can learn from it. But most of all, i can realise how far i have come and how i can get through the tough times. The times i didnt think i would get through, the times i thought "i cant keep going, i want to give up", but i never did. I lost myself during the past 1,5 years.... i lost my motivation, i lost my happiness and i lost who i was. But now i have found myself again and back to the person i am. And i want to stay this way, i want to keep feeling this happiness, the positivity!!
Of course there are still bad days and bad times, but NOT AT ALL like how it was before. If i am sleep deprived or havent eaten enough then i can feel a little low, but nothing like the past, then it is just regular bad days and not suicidal bad days.
I am thankful for how far i have come, but also i know i can get through the tough times again if i have to, but hopefully i wont.
You have to stay strong, keep fighting, but most of all..... make the changes necessary so that YOU can feel better. Reach out for help, take medication if you need to, change your diet and lifestyle if you need to, and keep going. Write, talk, feel your feelings and know that the emotions wont kill you. Stay safe and keep yourself from doing anything you will regret. Keep fighting and keep believing that things can get better!!! It is tough, it takes time.... but it can get better... even if it takes months or years, it can get better. You just have to keep going but also MAKE THE changes, get help, talk... those are my best tips. Dont sit alone and suffer in silence, i did that... and that meant that i spent 1,5 years in negativity and depression, but once i did reach out for help, start taking medication, open up... things have gotten better. I made changes in my life, did what was best for me and now i feel so much better!!!
Stay strong, and keep fighting!