Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
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Tuesday, August 16, 2016

Important reminders to read


  1. Hi Izzy - something I`ve been thinking about and I would love to hear your view on the subject if you get the chance. Do you think recovery from an ED occurs during the process of weight restoration, whether in treatment or not, and the subsequent return to good physical health or does it truly happen during the time that follows AFTER you are weight restored - meaning the repair of mental health and learning to live with your "new" body? Is it a case of living your life and fighting the problems that were behind the ED in it itself that indicates true recovery? If this is so surely this has to take a great deal of time - like several years? I ask because I was thinking about the treatment that is available for EDs and how it "ends" with completion of weight restoration. What happens next? Is it possible to be healthy in both mind and body after following a plan to gain weight or does the mental adjustment and healing take much more time?
    I am interested to hear your perspective on this and whether you think you did all your recovering during the mando years or whether it took place later on? should we see the refeeding process as complete recovery or just a starting point?
    If anyone else has views on this I`d love to read about them.

    1. I, 100%, believe that the refeeding and weight restoration phase is just the beginning. Eating disorders are mental illnesses that happen to also affect the physical body. Mental and emotional recovery cannot happen unless the body is restored to health first - this is simply biochemistry. Weight and nutritional restoration only prepares the ground for the real work. Treatment facilities focus on the physical, mostly due to financial and time constraints, which is a shame, as this is only step one (and arguably the easiest part of recovery). Putting on weight is easy. Changing the way you see the world and yourself is hard, and yet patients are often left to figure it out on their own. This is a major reason why their is such high rates of relapse post-treatment. No mental work can be done until the body is healthy, and so refeeding is incredibly important, but, like I said, it is only step one. Saying "weight restoration = recovery" is like saying "getting the ingredients out = cake". Not so - it's just the initial, and necessary, groundwork. Laying the foundation (getting the ingredients together) is the precursor to the real work of changing your thought processes (mixing and actually baking the cake). You wouldn't say the cake is done just because the ingredients are lined up on the counter. And I wouldn't say I'm recovered just because my weight is back to a healthy level. People who can access long-term treatment programs are fortunate, but it's rare that treatment length is actually on par with recovery length. As you said, this process is often years long (mine certainly was). Weight restoration is really just a blip on the radar of recovery, but it's necessity often overshadows the fact that there is still much work left to do.

    2. I have already written similar posts answering this, but i will answer in a post tomorrow hopefully when i have time. :)

  2. Thanks for these reminders, Izzy!! Sometimes it's easy to get caught up in the math of ED recovery, and forget about how important mental recovery is.
    I rested myself to quiche today, which was what my body was craving, not the salad my ED wanted me to have :) little victories like these take me one step closer to full recovery every day. There is so much more to life than being the "thinnest". I can't believe I let myself gat trapped in this brainwashed society. Everybody is beautiful, and perfect just the way they are!

    1. That is so awesome that you listened to your body and defied your eating disorder and ate what you really wanted! Small steps forward = progress! So next time try to do the same thing, eat what YOU want, not what your eating disorder wants you to eat! I hope you have a lovely week.

  3. Sorry if asking this has meant you repeating yourself, I`ll have a look through previous posts to see if I can find the subject again.

    1. Ph dont worry, you can always ask any question you have :) If i have already answered i will just link back to old posts, it is no problem! So dont feel like you are being a hassel by asking.