Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
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Friday, July 29, 2016

OSFED (eating disorder not otherwise specified) information

I found some information about OSFED : "Once termed Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified (EDNOS), OSFED encompasses five subtypes: atypical anorexia (in which a person has features of anorexia without low weight), bulimia nervosa (bulimic episodes that do not happen often and/or last long), binge eating disorder (binge episodes that do not happen often and or/last long), purging disorder (purging at least once a week, without binging), and night eating syndrome (consuming a large number of calories after dinner, or waking in the middle of the night to eat)." (Clare Millikin for Greatist)

I foound this information online and thought i would share it. Because the truth is there is both disordered eating and an eating disorder and there is a fine line between them. However to be diagnosed with an actual eating disorder there are certain criterias a person needs to fill. I.e some people might binge but maybe not X times a week and for X months a row so might not fill the criteria to be diagnosed with binge eating or bulimia, or maybe a person starves and restricts but does not have an underweight and so is not diagnosed with anorexia. However there is EDNOS, or now called OSFED which has different subtypes. So even if you might not fill the criteria for an eating disorder, or maybe you have symptoms from all eating disorders, that doesnt mean that you dont struggle with disordered thoughts and behaviours. It can be good to read about this if you feel like "i am not sick enough or i dont fit all the criteria " but you know that your behaviours aren't normal either.

1.  What is OSFED?
OSFED is an acronym for “other specified feeding or eating disorder.”  The disorder was previously known as “EDNOS,” or “eating disorder not otherwise specified” in the DSM-4.  However, with the release of the DSM-5 in May 2013, EDNOS became OSFED.  Put simply, OSFED is an eating disorder, but I bet you already knew that.
2.  Yeah, but what exactly is OSFED?
OSFED is an eating disorder that causes severe psychological distress, decreased quality of life, and functional impairment within a patient and presents in such a way that he or she does not meet the specific criteria for anorexia nervosa, bulimia nervosa, or binge eating disorder.  You may be thinking, “Well, OSFED could be anything!”  And you would be right.  However, the OSFED diagnosis has five sub-types that outline specific behavioral patterns:
Atypical anorexia nervosa  (OSFED-AAN):  Patient experiences restrictive behaviors such as limiting overall caloric intake and / or fasting but is not at a clinically low body weight;
Atypical bulimia nervosa (OSFED-BN):  Patient experiences binge eating and purging behaviors, such as self-induced vomiting, laxative / diuretic abuse, and over-exercise with less frequency (less than one binge-purge episode per week) or duration (less than three months), as outlined within the bulimia nervosa criteria;
Binge eating disorder (OSFED-BED):  Patient experiences binge eating behaviors without restrictive compensatory behaviors, including purging, with less frequency (less than one episode of binge eating per week) or duration (less than three months), as outlined within the binge eating disorder criteria;
Purging disorder:  Patient experiences purging behaviors, including self-induced vomiting and laxative abuse, in the absence of binge eating.  For more information about purging disorder, read “Purging Disorder” on the Mirror, Mirror website;
Night eating syndrome (NES):  Patient possibly experiences restrictive behaviors during the day but eats at least 25% of his or her calories after the evening meal or throughout the night, at least twice per week.  This disorder is characterized by urges to eat at night and the belief that eating will help one sleep.  For more information on night eating syndrome, read “Night Eating Syndrome” on the Mirror, Mirror website.
If a patient does not fit into any of the above five categories, he or she may be given a diagnosis of “UFED,” or “unspecified feeding or eating disorder.”
3.  So, OSFED is like being “almost bulimic” or “almost anorexic”?
Resoundingly, no!  Such an interpretation implies that an individual with OSFED will eventually become diagnosed with anorexia or bulimia if he or she continues to engage in eating disordered behaviors or experiences a worsening in behaviors.  OSFED is a valid eating disorder and should not be compared competitively to anorexia, bulimia, or binge eating disorder.  OSFED is OSFED.
4.  Wait, aren’t all eating disorder patients diagnosed with OSFED during the recovery process when behaviors are decreased and / or weight is increased?
No.  As stated previously, OSFED is OSFED.  When a patient recovering from anorexia nervosa begins the weight restoration process and reduces restrictive behaviors, he or she is deemed to be in “partial remission.”  Similarly, when a patient is recovering from bulimia nervosa and reduces the frequency of binge / purge episodes, he or she is said to be in “partial remission,” as well.  However, if a patient sees a new doctor during his or her recovery process without a previous diagnosis, that individual may be given an OSFED diagnosis, as diagnoses must be made in regard to current presentations.
5.  Yeah, but how serious is OSFED?
Really fucking serious.  Currently, OSFED has a mortality rate of 5.2%, which is the highest mortality rate of any eating disorder.  I have my own hypothesis that the eating disorder is so dangerous because a great number of sufferers simply do not know about OSFED or are too ashamed of being deemed “not sick enough” to ask for help.  I am hoping that this blog will make a difference in how comfortable individuals with OSFED feel when talking about this illness.

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Sources / Further Reading:
Goodbye EDNOS, Hello OSFED” - Jenni Schaefer
OSFED” - Mirror, Mirror
What is OSFED?”  - NEDC


  1. Hi Izzy :)

    I have a quick (hopefully :p) question. So a few years ago I was diagnosed with an ed. And I know that it's just a bad stereotype that people do it for attention and while that's not how it began with me, I find myself holding on to my ed and wanting to lose more weight for the attention aspect of it...did you ever struggle with this or have ever heard of this before??

  2. This was very interesting - thanks for posting it

  3. Hi Izzy - you have a really healthy appetite and love of food and I wondered how long post recovery it was before you achieved this. That is it became your choice to eat that amount rather than having to be told? Or was it a case that you just developed a natural appetite because you were healthy and weight restored?