Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

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Friday, July 22, 2016

"No one is coming to save you"

A quote which i have wanted tatooed on my skin for a while is "no one is coming to save you". There have been many times i have wanted to spontaneously go to the tattoo parlour and get it done... but something holds me back, because even if i truly want that quote on my skin now, i might not want it in 10 or 20 years later. But it feels like i need that permanent, black ink on my skin and to see it everyday and to remind myself that - No one is coming to save me. That the problems i have i need to solve myself.

Of course this all sounds very negative and low and cheesy. First off, i DO BELIEVE that there is always help for people and some form of support. Whether it is friends, family, co workers, teachers, online friends/support, online hotlines/support centers, treatment centers and nurses or doctors or crisis centres etc There is always someone you can turn to for help even if it means online or calling different support centres.

However true recovery when it comes to mental illness, is all about YOUR OWN willpower and motivation. All about whether you want to recover or not, whether you make the changes necessary to reach a better and healthier stage in your life. Because no matter how many people you talk to, no matter how much support or help you recieve it doesnt always help if you dont mentally want to change or to get better. Of course therapy and CBT and inpatient or outpatient are all great and they do help - however to fully recover treatment wont always do that for you. Instead it is about YOU changing your mindset and thoughts and habits and being honest with yourself. Why do you do things - are they helping you or holding you back? Are you being true to yourself and what you want in life or are you doing things out of habit, obsession or compensation? Are you holding onto habits or thoughts that still make you sick? It is alot about self analysis and being honest with yourself, because it is easy to lie to others but also to lie to yourself if you want to... to believe those fake lies you tell everyone else.

Reach out for support and help, because recovery alone isnt always the best or to be recommended. Because support and help from others is beneficial and plays its roll in recovery, but it isnt enough to just go to treatment everyday or go to a therapist once a week and then sit and hope and wish that things get better but they never really do because you dont make the changes necessary for them to get better. There are tough times in recovery, facing fears, feeling anxious and guilty, changing old habits and thoughts but in the end it is worth it!

The quote "No one is coming to save you" might sound negative, but for me it is also one about strength and a reminder. That i cant sit and hope for things to change if i dont make the necessary mental changes for it to happen (as well as lifestyle changes if necessary), but also it reminds me that full recovery has been because of ME. That support and treatment has helped, but full recovery is because of my own willpower and motivation and strength to get me there.

Of course my current struggles (which are so much better!!!), will not be my lifelong struggles hopefully. I.e my situation now wont be my situation forever. So who knows, maybe when i am 30 or 40 and have kids i dont want that quote on my arm or leg or anywhere else on my body (though i do already know where i would get it, if i got a tattoo, haha). So for now i will wait, but i felt i wanted to write this out. Because it is a reminder to everyone that full recovery is about YOU making changes and not just sitting and hoping things get better. Because in the end, only you can save yourself if you truly want to get better.


  1. :) - thank you again

  2. I totally agree - there is no magic wand, you have to want to get better for yourself and no amount of medication/advice/support can work for you unless you have at least some willingness about you. It is no good just going to a therapist and letting them do the talking, you have to participate.
    I think recovery is all about mindset, and if your thinking is on track then any help you receive is beneficial. Unless you yourself want it then others are just wasting their time.