Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Sunday, July 17, 2016

My life right now

I've been a little distant from blogging - well I guess that's not unusual the past 12 months,  hahah.  I have a few good days of blogging and then am distant for a while and repeat.

It's mostly that I don't have so much to write... trying to write on my "depression series" but at times it feels like I might not be in the right place to write about it now as I have realised I amnt fully back to myself, even if I'm better. But I don't want to let a few good days fool me into thinking I'm 100% free from depression,  because I amnt yet.

So what's happening in my life right now? I've had a few days off from work to just sleep, eat, watch series and films and go to the gym what whatever time I feel like! And it has been lovely to have a few days off because the next 3 weeks it's many hours of work, which I am looking forward to! In my perfect world I would work 3 days, have one day off and then work 3 days and repeat! And in my perfect study world I would have 2 days of lectures, 1 day off and then 2 days of lectures and then 2 days off. (That would be the best schedule according to me!)

Otherwise I am doing my best to try to find living in Gothenburg - I spent 2 hours this morning signing up to different sites and adding myself to queues for student apartments (though most people wait in the queue for 3-5 years before they get an apartment :/ ). But all I can do is my best and worst case scenario I'll either have to say no to my university application or I'll have to live in a hostel. But nothing to worry about now!  I am however looking forward to moving and to studying again. Granted there are nerves and anxiety and considering I have only been to Gothenburg once in my life it's a little scary. But I know I can cope and live on my own and I want new adventures!! So I'm excited mostly!

Otherwise I'm eating a bunch of potatoes, oatmeal and banana as well as one pot lentils which is my absaloute favourite at the moment! Also I think my iron levels have been low because the past 2 weeks I was feeling very tired and craving raisins and spinach like crazy so I ate about 1kg spinach (frozen) per day as well as 200-300g raisins a day and now my energy levels are on top again and not craving those foods (which are high in iron) as much. It always amazes me how the body tells us what we need if we dare to listen and trust our body! Whenever I crave something very strongly then I know it's because there is some vitamin or mineral in the food that my body needs!  So listen to your body! Just like when you are extra hungry, there is often a reason for it so dare to eat more!

And finally.... well There isn't much more in my life. Hence why I haven't written so much, haha. I'm basically just doing the same old things that make me happy! Focusing on the positives and trying to make each day as good as possible!


  1. Congrats on getting a study place. I hope you get into your nro 1 choice too :)
    I´m wondering that if you´ll be a nutritionist or advisor, how strongly are you going to promote the vegan lifestyle. Or are you stil going to make meal plans including meat, eggs an dairy?

    Have a great week next week!
    I hope you´ll find a apartment.

    1. I've been wondering about this too! As a nutritionist, will you be allowed to tell your patients that animal products are unhealthy, or will you still have to include them in the meal plans?
      Also, maybe you could write a post about whether they teach you that animal products are healthy despite the numerous studies that have been proving the opposite?

      No pressure on you Izzy, put yourself first :))

    2. Ive answered in a post up now :) Thank you for asking as i have been meaning to write about this :)

  2. Maybe taking a food supplement tablet - vitamin/iron/mineral would help you right now?
    I hope you are successful in finding living accommodation, it would be such a shame to have to decline your placement after you have worked so hard for it. Could you actually go to Gothenburg for a few days and look for somewhere that way, or doesn't it work like that? I just wondered if you could visit property agents etc?
    Hope your week gets off to a good start, sounds like you are going to be pretty busy with work!
    Take care and grab some "me time" to relax when you can - I think you are doing a great job juggling everything - it was nice to read your update as I was worried about you :) and I can fully understand you not persuing your topic on depression at the moment, the most important thing is you.

  3. We all have those days where we should just shut down, and just after that you can feel energized again. We are no robots - luckily I have to say haha :D
    Wish you all the best with your study place :*

    Greetings from Austria :)