I've been a little distant from blogging - well I guess that's not unusual the past 12 months, hahah. I have a few good days of blogging and then am distant for a while and repeat.
It's mostly that I don't have so much to write... trying to write on my "depression series" but at times it feels like I might not be in the right place to write about it now as I have realised I amnt fully back to myself, even if I'm better. But I don't want to let a few good days fool me into thinking I'm 100% free from depression, because I amnt yet.
So what's happening in my life right now? I've had a few days off from work to just sleep, eat, watch series and films and go to the gym what whatever time I feel like! And it has been lovely to have a few days off because the next 3 weeks it's many hours of work, which I am looking forward to! In my perfect world I would work 3 days, have one day off and then work 3 days and repeat! And in my perfect study world I would have 2 days of lectures, 1 day off and then 2 days of lectures and then 2 days off. (That would be the best schedule according to me!)
Otherwise I am doing my best to try to find living in Gothenburg - I spent 2 hours this morning signing up to different sites and adding myself to queues for student apartments (though most people wait in the queue for 3-5 years before they get an apartment :/ ). But all I can do is my best and worst case scenario I'll either have to say no to my university application or I'll have to live in a hostel. But nothing to worry about now! I am however looking forward to moving and to studying again. Granted there are nerves and anxiety and considering I have only been to Gothenburg once in my life it's a little scary. But I know I can cope and live on my own and I want new adventures!! So I'm excited mostly!
Otherwise I'm eating a bunch of potatoes, oatmeal and banana as well as one pot lentils which is my absaloute favourite at the moment! Also I think my iron levels have been low because the past 2 weeks I was feeling very tired and craving raisins and spinach like crazy so I ate about 1kg spinach (frozen) per day as well as 200-300g raisins a day and now my energy levels are on top again and not craving those foods (which are high in iron) as much. It always amazes me how the body tells us what we need if we dare to listen and trust our body! Whenever I crave something very strongly then I know it's because there is some vitamin or mineral in the food that my body needs! So listen to your body! Just like when you are extra hungry, there is often a reason for it so dare to eat more!
And finally.... well There isn't much more in my life. Hence why I haven't written so much, haha. I'm basically just doing the same old things that make me happy! Focusing on the positives and trying to make each day as good as possible!