Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Thursday, July 28, 2016

"Bikini ready"

"Bikini Ready"
"Our culture is fascinated with the concept of being “Bikini Ready” or “Swimsuit Ready” during the summer. Make no mistake - This is weight loss propaganda against women. The idea is that women should only bare their bodies if they are able to attain a certain shape. Otherwise, they should be too ashamed of what they look like and should thus spend the summer hidden away. But that “certain shape” is always changing and will look different for each woman. The only constant is: It requires you to be thinner and prettier than you are right now. 
Challenge this thought process by challenging what it means to be “Bikini Ready.” Instead of changing your body, change your mind:
  1. Tackle the reasons why you don’t feel comfortable wearing a bikini right now. Saying “I’m too fat” isn’t identifying the real problem. If you’re blaming your body, then keep thinking. Dig a little further until you recognize the deeper issue, such as “I’m afraid of how people will treat me” or maybe “I don’t feel like I deserve it” or even “I’ve been told so often that only certain girls can wear bikinis, I’ve never really questioned it.“ 
  2. Recognize that changing your body is not going to change your self-image unless you actually begin to attack the feelings that are causing this problem. Your weight or appearance is just a scapegoat - Really, fully accepting this can take time, but plant the seed.
  3. Go out and buy yourself that bikini. Dig through your closet to find the one that you bought last year. Put it on and just look at yourself in the mirror. You’re you in this bikini and you’ll still be you when you take it off. And let’s face it: You’re awesome. 
  4. If you’re not comfortable showing that much skin right now? That’s fine! Switch up the plan and put on a pretty dress instead, or a new shirt. You don’t have to bare your skin in order to love what you look like and to feel safe. What matters is that you’re happy, not that you’re wearing a specific article of clothing. Don’t feel pressured into putting on a bikini if you don’t really want to. 
Reject the idea that your body is what needs to be prepped before you’re ready to put on a bikini. Instead, tackle your mind, your self-image and all the messages that the media is sending you.  "


  1. Yes its that time of year when all the magazine front covers are screaming quick weightloss diets and how to get the perfect beach body - and to be honest I`m sick of seeing such nonsense. I really wish the media wouldn't hype things up in this way.

  2. Have you heard of that fucking Beach Body shit sweeping the internet? The name alone makes me want to vomit. The name alone has prevented me from learning anything about the "program" because it's just so much more of the drivel and poor messaging we are fed round the clock, from all sides. I don't need a "beach body", I already have one. My body was on a beach yesterday, ergo I had a beach body. The idea that a "beach body" is some specific ideal that people are selling to each other is so wrong,on so many levels. Sorry, /rant. I just really hate it and can't seem to escape it. But I CAN choose to dismiss it as nonsense, and see it or what it really is. And I can choose not to be part of it.