Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.
I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.
I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: email@example.com
Saturday, July 30, 2016
17 days of work in a row and new running shoes
Day 7 out of 17 working days, and in all honesty... i just want to lie in my bed and sleep for a while. Today i dont want to work... at all. But at the same time i do want to work because it gives me something to do and i do enjoy it, but i do want some time to just be at home as well... but that will have to wait until 10 more days. My lack of ability to say no has lead to 17 work days in a row. Though my work shifts are only 6-8 hours long so they are managable but in a sense my whole day goes towards work because 1) i get up and get ready 2) go for a walk or workout or just stay at home until it is work time, 3) work my hours, 4) im so exhausted i just come home to eat and then sleep before a new day. So there is nothing exciting to write about my days or anythinge exciting i am doing... its just work.
Aside from work i am apartment hunting as much as i can... but nothing great has come from it yet. So the anxiety and fear is building up as each day passes... worried that my autumn wont turn out as planned and that i will end up not being able to study and ill end up in Stockholm with no school, no work and an ended relationship. That is not how i want my autumn to be and it scares me so much that if i dont find living in Gothenburg, then that is exactly how my autumn will be. THough of course there might still be work for me if i stay in Stockholm, but all i want to do is to begin studying and get back into that routine again.
Otherwise... i got my first paycheck and it feels amazing... Even if most of it is being saved to the autumn i knew i needed to treat myself to something, and i was caught between 1) getting my haircut, 2) getting a massage or 3) getting new running shoes.
And after some thinking the choice was obvious. I do alot of walking and standing at my job and i dont have the right shoes so at the moment i have SO MUCH knee, hip and back pain. It is ridiculous really, i have had to walk around with compression sleeves on my knees and taking a whole bunch of anti inflammatory pain killers for my hips. This of course makes exercise impossible even if i wanted to.
So now finally i have gotten the time to go buy new shoes and also insoles so that now my feet will have the support they need and hopefully the pain will pass. But also i have a 10 km run/rcae in 2 weeks time and i didnt think i would run it because i havent been running recently but i have decided i want to run it. Even if i wont run it in 40 minutes like i had applied for, i will do my best and have a good time and run with my step dad, and it will be my 3rd year in a row running it. So now with new shoes i am so excited to run!
But i just wanted to write that it is SO IMPORTANT with the right shoes and support for your feet. Whether it is your work shoes or exercise shoes, please invest in good ones!! Especially if you are a runner or do alot of walking or standing... knee, hip and back pain can all stem from the wrong shoes. So save up - that is what i have done now, and it is worth it to have the right shoes!
For now it is back to work and i am longing to get home again, hahaha!
I hope you all have a lovely Saturday and a lovely weekend :)