Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

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Wednesday, June 29, 2016

We grow and change over time (My past posts arent who I am now)

As we grow we also change.

Sometimes i feel like this is accurate, in some sense... hahah. In a year i change alot, i grow and progress. Realise and experience and thoughts and opinions can change.

One thing which i love but also dislike about my blog is all my old posts. I love them because 1) I can look back on them, see what i did a year or few years ago and just remember that time of my life. But also i can look back on those posts and think, wow i have changed from that mindset or those thoughts or that opinion. Or wow, i am so much more educated now and know that what i was doing back then was a mistake - which of course i couldnt have known then, i was doing the best i could out of my knowledge back then. But for me, i like seeing the progress. But it is a double edged knife in a sense, because some people look back on my old posts and think that that is still me now.... that the posts i made from 2012, 2013 or 2014 are still the me now and judge me based on those? I.e i got a comment on a post from 2013 saying "wow you are still so sick and body obsessed", or something in that style. And i was like, you know what... that post isnt exactly the best post and those pictures arent the pictures i am most proud of or would post now, but that was me 3 years ago.  ALOT changes in a year, nonetheless 3 years... so dont judge me based on who i was such a long time ago.

I can look back on those posts and realise how far i have come, while others look back on them and think that that is still who i am.

I am the first to admit that not all posts are ones i am proud of now, not all pictures are ones i am proud that i have posted but in the past it was ok. I was ok with those posts and pictures hence why they were posted, but some pictures i just feel like "Damn, can you try any harder to flex or look skinny? hahahhah." (The answer is no, because i was trying so hard.)

I dont mind people reading my old posts, they are still there for a reason (also because i dont feel like looking through all my 9230 posts i have on my blog and deleting the ones i feel are wrong or just unnecessary as well as pictures). But remember to maybe check the date of the post and remember that when i wrote personal posts that was who i was back then and the posts i make now is who i am now.

Of course in a few years time i will look back on my 2016 posts and see how much i have changed and grown and how different i may feel mentally. I'll most likely be more knowledgable in different areas of my life and realise that things i am doing now werent as great as i thought, but all i can do and know is from my knowledge right now!!!

This post is a bit of a mess but i was looking through some old posts and began thinking about this and smiled because i have grown. .Think how tragic it would be if we stayed in the same mental state, same routines, same thoughts and same everything our whole life?
  Life is about change, growing, experiencing... it is OK to admit you had wrong or did wrong in the past. I am the first to admit i have made a BUNCH of silly mistakes which i wouldnt make now, but back then they didnt seem like mistakes. I have had times i have admited that i was wrong in the past, or said things that was wrong. And also my opinion on veganism has changed, in the past i thought it was restrictive and not something i wanted to do... but look at me now, feeling great with this lifestyle (and that is what i want it to be, a lifestyle not just eating plant based. But of course i dont want to label myself either, i dont like labels.) So my opinion has changed over time and that is ok as well!!! Allow yourself to grow and change and allow yourself to admit you had wrong or to change opinions etc We are not set in stone and our thoughts and opinions arent set in stone, instead we are allowed to change how we think and what we believe in!!!


  1. Hey Izzy. Lovely post here and I'm glad you wrote it. I think someone you might enjoy seeing is Ella Grace Denton. She's a bit of a hippie but I really love her (or at least what she stands for because I don't know her properly). She's a vegan blogger but she has a very healthy and balanced approach to life. I'm not a vegan myself but I'm trying to reduce my meat and dairy consumption and replace it with more high protein vegetables and legumes. Anyway, she has a blog called 'We need to live more' and I think you'd really enjoy what she writes about. I seem like I'm promoting her, ahaha, sorry! But maybe take a look if you'd like.

  2. I`ve read through some of your past posts and of course it is obvious that you will have changed and grown in your thoughts over time - one would have to be a bit daft if they thought you to be the same as when you wrote some of your posts - what were you, 15/16? Of course you are going to change, develop different attitudes - grow up! I definitely don`t assume that you are the same person that wrote your earlier posts, but at the same time I respect the stage that you were at at that time but do not see them as a reflection of how or what you are now.
    So don`t worry about it. People read your posts now and see you for what you are now, and if they read back posts then they will see you for what you were then, at that time of your life. Different things happen to us all the time and those things shape us over time. It stands to reason that we will be different in some ways in x amount of time than we are now. And it is nice/useful to go back and reflect how much we have changed, or be reminded of the acheivements we gained x time ago. Be proud of your journey and your past posts, and no regrets:)