Today is one of those days where i dont really know why but everything just feels tougher, i feel sad, low and lots of anxiety. Like a cloud of heavyness and darkness and feeling lost... The summer of feeling where you want to do loads of things but at the same time lack the energy to actually do them. Or you have no one to actually make plans with, and just a feeling of "lost" and not knowing what to do with my life.
Days like this life always feels a little tougher, as well as not having such a great morning. But i decided to just take deep breathes, head home and not feel so negative. I am still feling very "off" and not so great but i am instead going to focus on the positives of today...
Got a package with things i ordered 3 weeks ago... (Apparently someone stole my first package, but the site i ordered from was nice enough to send me a new package!)
I have a job interview tomorrow. (The more i think about this the more nervous i get and just want to cancel the interview and accept that i amnt good enough and wont get the job... and even if i am sure i wont get the job as i dont have all the qualifcations, i know that i need to atleast try. Despite feeling nervous and it being a huge step out of my comfort zone.)
And now i am going to go to the store and buy watermelon and bananas and make nice cream and maybe some fruit salad with oat vanilla cream. Uhhh oh... thinking about food/planning foood.... not a good sign XD Hhaha. Nope i have just got major cravings for banana ice cream with some spinach and vanilla stevia drops!
And to end this post... it was a year ago roughly since i graduated high school, and i miss my graduation day. It went by so fast and i wish i could experience it again... i guess my next graduation will be in 3-4 years when i might be done with university!!!