Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.
I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.
I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: firstname.lastname@example.org
Wednesday, June 22, 2016
Overthinking what i should write
At the moment it feels like words dont flow so freely for me now when i am blogging. Not like in the past when i could just write without thinking and not be worried about being judged by readers or judged by people who know me in real life. But now i feel like i need to overthink everything i write and how i formulate my sentences. I feel like i cant write about food on here and i cant write about exercise or that i had energy and strength at the gym, because then it seems like all i do is exercise or that all my thoughts are on food if i write about food. And i feel like i cant always write how i am feeling or the thoughts in my head - though in all honesty, i cant always explain my own thoughts and feelings and sometimes it is for the best to not write them out.
But i feel like blogging isnt so much fun when i keep having to think about what i should or shouldnt write about, when i have to filter everything so much that i am left with just a "Hello, today has been a good day/bad day"..... And it also takes away my inspiration for other posts. No inspiration for advice posts or what to write about. Blogging may seem easy, It is just to write. But it definitely isn't just writing... it is also thinking about what is ok to publish, what readers want to read about and what is relevant content. But sometimes the analyzing of what readers want to read about can be too much... because i cant please everyone. Some want to read more about some things others want to read more about other things. Some say they want more personal posts and more about myself and my life and others say they want less as they want more advice posts, and then i am stuck on what to do as i want to please everyone - even if i know i cant.
I want to write freely but at the same time i dont even know what to write about anymore, hahaha. The blog flow is definitely not inside of me anymore, maybe all i need is a blog break for a while.... focus on my family, on work and just summer.... not so sure what i will do, but i guess it will be noticed if i take a blog break. It is like with working out, when i lack motivation then the best thing is to take a break from it for a while until the motivation comes back and then the motivation is better than ever!! :)
For now i will try my best with regular posts and updates, and try to not filter myself so much. Not hold back my writing and not be worried for critisizm, as i feel that is making me overthink every sentence i write. Instead just be open and write what is on my mind or what i feel like posting at the time, whether thats a meal i ate, article i found, thought i had or inspiration i want to share!!