Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.
I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.
I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: firstname.lastname@example.org
Thursday, June 9, 2016
Comparing yourself to others wont make you feel better - and reminding yourself that you are good enough as you are
Usually i am the type of person who doesnt compare myself to others. I have found that there is no point, everyone is different. But at times when just surfing social media i can find myself comparing myself to others, and not based on appearance, but on achievements or what others can do.
Sometimes i find myself on different food accounts on instagram or recipe blogs and just wish that i was that creative with food and recipes and that my food photos were as good. Wish that my blog was as modern and clean and fresh and that i had time and money to just be creative with food and recipes and make delicious looking food and desserts. My food is basically amateur - i am hungry but sometimes creative with what i eat food. Some people online take such amazing photos of food or making such amazing recipes and i just wish i could do the same thing.
And then there are times when i realise that some people who have only been going to the gym for 1-2 years and already have such amazing progress and strength or can do so many different things and then i begin to think.... "well i've gone to the gym for 4 years now and i am lucky if i can squat half my body weight without having back pain for the next 2 weeks." Or when people post videos or pictures of them doing cool exercises/workouts and i feel like i will never be able to do that due to pain and injuries... but then again, practise makes perfect and there is hours of practise behind those photos and videos, so i know that! I workout for fun and enjoyment and not for any physical goal or any certain type of goal apart from small things like 10 chin ups or double my bodyweight in deadlift or run a half marathon etc but its never been any "big" goals and then when i see people reaching all these big goals and i think.... what have i done these 4 years at the gym? But i know its silly to think that way because i have made so much progress strength wise and just a healthier and more capabel body. And my goal is not to be the strongest or most fit and i have done what i enjoy and what makes me feel happy and healthy so that is the most important!
And then when i see some people who seem to have achieved so much and are still so young i begin to question what i am doing with my life.... but then i think about all the achievements in my life and i shouldnt downplay them just because others seem to have 'bigger' achievements.
Sometimes i can get the feeling like i amnt really good at anything... just mediocre. Like im trying, but still not good enough in any area of my life. I have written about it before, but i often feel like an awful friend, sister, daughter, girlfriend. Like i amnt good enough in school, or good at running or strength training, not good at blogging or writing or keeping in contact... not really good at anything. And i often like to downplay my achievements because someone else is always better than me anyway. But i need to learn that i am good enough and just because others have achieved certain things in life doesnt mean that my achievements dont matter or that i amnt good enough. Everyone is good at different things and sometimes we wish we were better at other things, but then its just to work on them as best we can!!
Comparison really is the theif of joy, but i am reminding myself that i am good enough as i am. And also a reminder to not compare myself to others because it never helps, each time i do compare myself to others (which doesnt happen so often), but when it does i never feel better. So focusing on myself, my goals and my life and trying to remind myself that i am good at things even if i am not the best. And even if i was the worst it doesnt matter, i should do what i enjoy and things take time in life!
A long sort of ramble post this morning at 6am, but i felt like i needed to write it out and maybe others relate to the feeling of not being good enough or comparing your achievements to others.
But you need to focus on YOU and that you ARE good enough and dont compare yourself or your achievements to others, because there will always be people who are better or worse than you at things or achieved things which you want to achieve, but that doesnt matter. You do you, and focus on you!!