Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.
I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.
I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: firstname.lastname@example.org
Wednesday, June 1, 2016
Trying to get my life together
Hello and good morning :)
On Monday and most of Tuesday i was just one unmotivated mess. I think i sat infront of my computer for 4 hours straight and just couldnt get anything productive done. I checked my phone every 5 minutes, just because i wanted a distraction from actually having to do what was done.
After those 4 hours i went to my mums room and was like "You need to motivate me to start writing and get stuff done because otherwise i will sit here and just waste time and feel guilty about that"... her way of motivating me was "You just have to do it. Stop making excuses and putting up obstacles and saying no to things.... just do it" Well along the lines of that anyway. But it worked, because i walked back to the kitchen, sat infront of my computer and wrote 4 different personal letters. Sent in my CV and personal letter to one job at a health/gym reception where a girl i know works at so she will give me a recommendation. I dont know how i feel about reception work, but i do lack some of the skills which said were necessary for aplying but you never know, and like my mum said i need to stop setting up obstacles and just apply anyway.... i mean its not like i can lose anything by trying!
And today the goal is to walk around different areas of Stockholm and leave my CV and personal letter and just hope that maybe there is somewhere that is searching for staff and finds me as interesting/an option!
Also, something fun in my life... i have been asked to contribute a 3 course vegan meal to a recipe book!! I wasnt sure i wanted to do it at first but then i thought... "why not!". I wont get paid for it, but it will be fun to contribute! I am still deciding over what to make but i think i have the starter and dessert thought out, but not so sure about the main course. I will have my friends over for dinner and they can choose to be in the photos or not, but i want to make something which will be delicious for others i.e my friends but also interest non vegans to want to try the recipe... so not something with too much greens or vegetables, but maybe a vegan lasagna or something like that :)
So that's something to look forward to and also my friends were excited about the idea. I thought they would be skeptical and not be so interested but they all said they are looking forward to it and open to trying a 3 course vegan dinner!
For now it's time to get ready, start my day and then hopefully have a very productive day!!!
So I hope you all have a great day and also remember if there is something you are procrastinating or not doing when you know you should - remember that you often feel better once it's done, it's just to motivate yourself and then do it!!