Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: lifewithoutanorexia@hotmail.com

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Sunday, May 15, 2016

Post about my blogging and some thoughts

Hello and good morning :)

I wanted to make a video about this topic but as I'm not at home and won't be able to film until Wednesday or Thursday I thought I would write about it anyway.

So I've been declared healthy for 4,5 years now and of course it hasn't been a linear 4,5 years. Compare myself and my thoughts and behaviours now to how I was in 2012 there is a huge difference. despite being declared healthy I still had things to work on and I still have things to work on though they aren't eating disorder related, they are stress and low self esteem related.  So who knows in 2018 or 2020 I'll look back and see how much I have changed and grown from who I was now.

A question I ask myself at times is why do I still blog? So many years of blogging and I am free from my eating disorder.... so why "hold on to it" via my blog. But each time I answer this it is because I want to help others and inspire others to recover. ... Sometimes I blog for my sake with my thought posts or just personal posts but most often it's for the sake of my readers I. E You.

But the fact is that 1) I have written posts about most topics and try to help with any questions I get now. But also 2) I can barely remember how I recovered.... how I dealt with the anxiety or guilt. I just did. It wasn't easy and I did wrong plenty of times but somehow I got through all those tough times... I decided what I wanted and that was life and health. And then I made changes in my life. It wasn't easy and I can't even remember what I did or how I got through the tough times. ... so that can make it hard to answer questions at times because I barely remember how I recovered. Though I do remember how awful it was to be sick and in hospital so those things keep me from ever falling back into an eating disorder because I would never want to go back to hospital or back to who I was when I was sick.

One thing I do remember is that I was so helpless and lost and wanted answers in recovery. I wanted someone to relate to someone who could answer questions which the doctors never gave me answers to, and that is what I want to do with my blog.  Help others and make you feel a little less lost and a little more motivated.  But then again recovery and the body is so individual and how a person recovers is different from person to person.  And it's alot about walking in the dark and knowing that there is light at the end of the tunnel as long as you keep going. It's about having blind faith and "just doing it" and facing your fears because no one else can do that for you.  So even if I give advice you need to then try to put the advice to action and actually make changes and face fears! Nothing will change unless you make the change!!

Another thing I love about blogging is hearing people's recovery stories or the progress they made.  Or when  someone emails me a year later after we've had contact and tells me about all the progress they have made. It makes me so incredibly happy and reminds me how I want to keep helping people... to see/hear about people feeling healthier and happier! That is such a joy and makes me so happy. So I am hoping in summer I will get back into emailing again because even if it takes time I do love having that personal contact with people and helping people individually!

Where am I going with this post? Well... that I am recovered and so I don't have fears about food or worried about gaining lots of weight, I don't worry about resting from exercise or eating more Somedays and I don't hate my body so those things that you might struggle with daily I don't have those struggles anymore and so can't write so much advice about them. But what I can show is that you can be free from those thoughts if you decide to make a change and focus on full recovery. I want to show that life can be awesome even if it has its struggles and ups and downs.

I want to blog to help people even if I am no longer sick I want to try my best to help YOU. But that also means that I blog for your sake and to help you as best as I can!

So if you ever have any questions or need some advice you can comment or leave constructive criticism so I know how to improve!

I love blogging but don't know how long I will blog for but as long as I enjoy it I will keep going. But focusing more on "good posts " rather than many posts from now on!!

7 comments:

  1. Thank you so so much for your blog Izzy. It has helped me so much and reminds me that I need to eat, be kind to myself, and it helps to know that others have gone through the same thing as me and are now living a healthy life- that there is something better out there than my ED. Thank you Izzy! :)

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    1. I am glad I can help and my blog is useful :) that is why I blog!! I love knowing I can help people somewhat. Stay strong and keep fighting! (My Google account isn't working so have to just write my name... haha but it's me!)

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  2. Your blog shows me that there is indeed life after recovery and that is very valuable to me. So much information out there stops when recovery is complete but your blog fills the gaps - so to speak. To know that there is life after recovery, a potentially happy and healthy life is an inspiration and keeps me going. I love reading about your happy moments, how you cope with the ups and downs of life and also your advice posts. You give advice and insight that no doctor can give because you have experienced it yourself and felt it.
    I value your advice posts but I also equally value your posts on your thoughts and feelings, what you have been doing, the good and sometimes the not so good. That is because I know you have moved on from recovery and that you are writing about things that are relevant to you now, and that is good. These posts are just as helpful as advice posts as they are a reminder that there is life outside the recovery "bubble" and not everyone is as focused on recovery as myself, which is a good thing. I need to remember that although recovery may be the centre of my life at the moment the same doesn't follow with everyone else and I shouldn't think that it does.
    I just want to thank you for providing such an honest, informative blog, for taking the time to help others and sharing your recovery and post recovery journey.
    You should be proud of your achievement and I wish there was some sort of blogging award as you certainly deserve it.

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  3. if it wasn't for your blog i wouldn't be anywhere near where i am today. i am battling this on my own so your words help me to get through the stages of recovery. i am so grateful for all your writing, thoughts and insight it helps me so much. please continue with the educational posts if you feel up to it as i benefit so much from knowing what to do when i feel a certain way and also how to let go of behaviours, what to do if feel hungry, weight changes, body image etc.

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    1. Thank you <3 <3 i will try my best to keep blogging and give advice!

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  4. your blog on the ED things you struggled with in the past has helped so many people; I wonder if documenting your journey through the things that remain - the things you mention here - stress and self-esteem - will also help people, if you do, as you say, find that in 2018 or 2020 you are looking back at how much has changed. I hope most of all for your own sake that you will get past those things too so that you can feel that you look back on them the same way as you do now with the ED -- whether or not it's documented here. Take care. I hope you have a good day today, and always.

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    1. Thank you :) I do hope one day i can look back on this period of my life and see how much i have grown, changed and progressed :) Such aslooking back on old posts and realising how i dont think the same way anymore!

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