Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.
I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.
I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: email@example.com
Monday, May 16, 2016
Long day of travelling, rest and delicious food
For me it is almost the end of Monday and it has been one long day.
In the past i always had to workout on Mondays, no matter how tired or unmotivated i was. I had the mantra of "Never miss a Monday", luckily that is not the case anymore and i can rest whenever i need it whether thats a Monday, Wednesday or Sunday. Its strange how you can get stuck in certain things where i used to feel like a failure if i didnt workout on a Monday XD Glad those thoughts are long and gone.
My day has mostly been spent sitting on trains and waiting at the hospital as i had a CF appointment today. It took me 90 minutes to get there from my boyfriends apartment and then i was at the hospital for roughly 45 minutes where 35 minutes was waiting time and then i was done.... It feels rather unnecessary to go there as i dont have anything to say to the doctor and he/she doesnt have anything to say to me, and each time i go there i only speak to the doctor for 5-10 minutes and then im done. So a bit of waste of time and i wish i could just go when i needed it, but thats not allowed as i need to go for check ups each 4-6 weeks... basically my whole life -_-' You would think i am used to it by now, but still it never gets easier to go to the doctor. But atleast it wasnt bad news this time, so i can be satisfied with that!!
After the hospital visit it was time to travel home to my own apartment and it was supposed to take 2 hours but due to delays and train changes it took 3 hours until i was finally home and i dont think lying in my own bed has ever felt so good!! It has been a super long day where i have spent around 5 hours on public transport and surrounded by people so now i am looking forward to my evening on my own and watching series!!!
Below is my lunch and dinner today. If you dont like food pictures or get triggered then just skip them :)
Lunch today was black bean pasta (which had been lying around in my boyfriends cupboards for a while so i decided to finally try them... i'm not such a fan of pasta and this one got a 4/10 from me. It needed alot of salt to make them tasty!) and lentils, an avocado, tomatoes, cucumber and on the side: 2 kiwis, 2 nectarins and a banana. Yes i ate it all ;) And it kept me going almost all the way until dinner (Bought a coffee and an apple while waiting for my long journey back to my own apartment!)
And then dinner when i got home:
I heated up some lentils i had made last week, added some soya mince, sweet corn, tomatoe sauce and garlic. Placed into the paprika and into the oven and then topped with hummus and sunflower seeds. And outside the picture there is more soya/lentil mix which i also ate!
It is fun to be more creative with what i eat and i have loads of ideas for lunchs/recipes which i want to eat/try so i hope you dont mind if i share some of my meals, though i will try keep from being repetitive :) But it might give you some ideas for what you can try making/eating as well?
Let me know if you like the food pictures or not :) Or if you want me to share recipes/food ideas/inspiration.