Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: lifewithoutanorexia@hotmail.com

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Thursday, May 26, 2016

Life update and feeling better!

Good morning everyone :) Or maybe it is evening or afternoon when you read this, but for me it is the morning!

I want to start off by saying thank you for all the questions i have recieved recently, it has definitely inspired me and all i want to do now is sit and write and answer all the questions i have recieved, which is what i plan to do. I dont really have anything else/anywhere to be today as i am waiting with exercise until the weekend if i still feel ok. So might as well spend the whole morning writing!

I am feeling alot better today and more like myself. More energetic, have an appetite and more clear in the mind i.e not walking around like a zombie. Infact over these past few days i have walked into more walls, doors, chairs and tables than i have through all my childhood, hahaha. Though i wasnt a very clumsy child, but now it was like i couldnt quite control my body and it was like my body radiated towards those corvers of chairs and tables, haha. Today i atleast have mental clarity and can think straight! So moving on and looking to the future, and if i look into the near future i.e today, tomorrow and the weekend then my future contains 1) do the last bit of work for my group presentation today, 2) Do my group presentation, hopefully pass that presentation and then be completely done with this course (Mixed feelings). I have gotten a grade (or well, a pass or fail) on everything we have done so far and i have passed everything even if i thought i would fail my previous test and the essay i wrote but that was not the case. (I really need to start believing in myself and stop thinking that my work isnt good enough.) and then on Friday i also need to do laundry, clean my room and pack and then on Saturday i will travel to Stockholm and bring with me as much as i can and then sometime in the following week my mum will drive me to the apartment and i will pack with me everything i need apart from the furniture which wont be moved until the end of June.... So basically moving home again on  Saturday.

Or well, i still have the option to live with my boyfriend but i still dont know how i feel about that... but i have also been told that i can live there while he is out travelling in Norway (i wont be following with), hahah. So if i need a break from my family i atleast have that option.


Sooo... that is my plan for now. And i havent gotten a summerjob, but next week i might go to some smaller cafes/stores and apply there and see if i can get a few weeks job in the summer, who knows! Would be good for me so that i dont just lie around doing nothing and wishing and waiting until autumn. But hopefully the weather will be good so that i can travel out to an island with my faily and atleast get some sunshine and away from the city and feel like a little summer holiday/break!

Anyway, now i am going to try to answer some of your questions and either today or tomorrow make the video answering questions about plant based/veganism :) Though i will most likely do 2 or 3 videos as there is so much i want to say and i made a video yesterday but it was 30 minutes long and very bad video quality so i decided to not publish it! Just to remake videos!

I hope you all have a lovely day and now that i am feeling better hopefully but to better blogging as well as having more time for it!!


3 comments:

  1. Hi,
    this is just a question, and I mean nothing bad about it in any way:
    Do you think that your weight loss has made you feel more depressed? That eating more and gaining back the weight will make you happier and more energetic again?
    I don't mean to say that you feeling low has EVERYTHING to do with the weight loss, but if you think it played a big part.

    You see, I tend to start feeling depressed if I lose weight. Even to the point of feeling suicidal. Then if I gain it back (ie 2-3 kg), then I feel happy and energetic again. I figured it is best for my mental health that I stay at the "highest" weight. btw: this weight loss is not anorexia-related (which I know yours ist not either )

    Hope you have a great day, and I appreciate that you spend so much time and energy on keeping this blog "alive" :) :)

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    1. I think i recently wrote about this but yeah losing a few kilo deoes affect my mood and energy levels. That is why i often notice when i have lost weight even if i dont weigh myself because i notice it in my energy levels as well as my thoughts. But of course my low mood/depression has been for pretty much a year now, so that has nothing to do with my weightloss. But i am trying to regain the weight i lost because i know my body and mind feel healthiest at my normal set point which is where my body maintains it's weight and i feel best :) It is not like i try to lose weight or want to maintain the weight lost, i know i feel healthiest, strongest and happiest and my normal weight (as losing weight does make me feel more tired, negative etc) :)

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  2. So good to hear you are feeling like your old self again :) Time seems to have flown by its hard to believe you`re at the end of your course already. Do you have to wait to hear whether you`ve passed the entire course or is it done on marks per assignment/test? I didn't know if you had a kind of graduation? (But I think you should celebrate anyway - you`ve done remarkably well and yes I agree that you should believe in yourself more!)
    Have you any idea what you want to study (if at all) in the autumn?
    Have a good day and hope your presentation goes well!

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