Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.
I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.
I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: firstname.lastname@example.org
Sunday, May 15, 2016
Eurovision, pizza and anxiety attack
Who else watched the Eurovision yesterday? I watched with my family and my boyfriend joined even if he doesnt ejoy the show.... but then again who enjoys it 100% ? I watch it "just because" rather than because i enjoy it... Its a tradition to watch it in my family, so thats the main reason!
I am not going to comment so much about the actual show or anything, more that the show is fun to watch but then you forget about the songs the day after and dont remember who actually won until its Eurovision again!!
The best part about yesteday though was the pizza! We all made our own pizzas with different pizza bases and different topings, and of course mine always seems to be different from the rest, but it was 150% enjoyable which is the most important thing!! And the snacks afterwards ^_^
It was a nice evening though i didnt get to sleep until around 2am and then i was up at 7am, though i felt great and lots of energy when i woke up. But then later in the day i felt this panic, sadness and anxiety kicking in and before i knew it i was having a full blown anxiety attack with shaking, almost tears and just sort of spacing out as well as dizziness. The worst thing was that i had to sit on public transport feeling that way and then when i got to my boyfriends house i had to just curl into a ball on the bed and let the anxiety attack pass. I hate when i get such strong feelings or emotions like that when i am with others because it feels like i really ruin the mood and ruin the day for everyone, not to mention that i cant really communicate how i am feeling or what is going on in my mind (not to mention that i dont even know why i got so much anxiety), so then its just like silence from me when i sit there trying to not cry and trying to breathe properly. But after an hour i was beginning to feel like myself again so hopefully i can make the rest of the day better anyway, haha.
But the best advice when it comes to anxiety or anxiety attacks.... ride it out. Just sit with others or sit on your own and know that the anxiety and feelings will pass, it wont harm you. Only you can harm yourself if you allow those emotions to get the better of you, but you are strong enough to go against them. Just take deep breaths, allow yourself to cry if you need to. Write or draw or listen to music, know that the feelings will pass and you just got to deal with them when they are there. Just remember to not do anything stupid when you have such strong emotions, because you will regret it afterwards!!
Anxiety will pass remember that!!
I have some posts that might help if you get alot of anxiety:
For now i am going to watch a movie, eat something and just allow myself to feel tired and do absaloutly nothing as that is what i need right now.
Have a lovely Sunday everyone and make the best of the day no matter what happened yesterday or a few hours ago or a few moments ago. Let go and move on :)