Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Monday, May 30, 2016

Describing an eating disorder

If I had to describe an eating disorder, I would resemble it to a drug addiction. Now, imagine a drug addict trying to quit in a society that’s advertising new drugs while promising amazing highs all over the internet, on YouTube, Facebook, in TV, on the bus passing you right as you’re battling yourself whether to get your fix or go straight home. A society in which you can barely have a conversation without drugs being mentioned; how many you did yesterday, how amazing it felt, which drugs you want to try next. Surrounded by the mentality that it’s embarrassing, weird, lazy, even a sin not to do drugs. 
So, if you know someone who’s suffering from an eating disorder please restrain from bringing up topics like what diet your mom’s trying, how much you run, body image, what you eat or should eat, how you haven’t been hungry these last few days. Because what you’re doing is increasing the already life consuming, constant urges. Even if you aren’t asking if your friend wants to go for a run or even if the sufferer is the one bringing up these topics, you’re supporting the eating disordered thoughts, it’s triggering. Because we want to get our fix so badly and any excuse to get it, any tiny suggestion that getting high is fine, makes the fight ten times harder. It may be okay for you, but we’ve grown out of control and although I think society has as well, us suffering from an eating disorder needs the exact opposite of what society is yelling and pushing down everyone’s throat.
— (via X)


  1. I've commented before about my own history of anorexia that transitioned to drug addiction, and I very much believe that the two illnesses are products of the same sources of pain and internal or spiritual emptiness. EDs are addictive in nature, and the obsessive thoughts + compulsive behaviours are the same type one encounters with substance abuse/addiction. I remember in treatment hearing this same analogy and feeling how right on it is. Neither is easier or harder than the other to recover from, but with EDs there are definite added obstacles, in that the behaviours and results are often condoned by our society, and food is a substance that one HAS to learn to deal with in every day life. No one tells a recovering addict that they need to learn how to use their drug of choice safely and in moderation every day, but this is, in effect, what we tell recovering eating disordered people to do. You can't just cut out food and learn to live a life free from all eating-based activities. Instead, you need to change your entire way of thinking around food and body. Not a small task! I appreciate the pointers given in this post about how to address (or not address) food and body talk to someone with an ED. Addiction based disorders are ALWAYS looking for a way in, a justification, a trigger, a morsel to feed itself upon. In order to truly recover, we need to weaken that beast by not feeding it, not providing it with ammunition. NO food/body talk is safe from an ED's twisted interpretation, it will grasp at anything to keep itself going. Especially in early recovery, it is best to avoid these topics entirely when talking to someone who is suffering. Thanks for this post, Izzy - knowledge is power!