Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Friday, April 15, 2016

When will things get better?

I get alot questions asking me when things will get better? When you will feel more normal? Healthy? When the thoughts will go away?

And the fact is, I can't tell you that. It's not that you gain weight, reach a healthy weight and suddenly you are normal and healthy. Of course being a healthier weight helps you easier fight your mental thoughts as when you are undernourished and underweight it's harder to think properly.
BUT all your thoughts, your fears, anxieties and behaviours they will still be there until YOU change them. Don't sit and wait for a miracle or hope that someone else will get rid of the thoughts for you. Don't think I will change tomorrow or ill do this behaviour or compensate just once because that's not how it works.

10 years from now,  if YOU don't change anything you will still live with your control issues, with your fears and anxieties.  Still have your behaviours and habits which restrict you from living a truly healthy life.
Is that how you want it? To be in the exact same position because you ate too scared to make a change? It is scary

.. but you know what is more scary? To live a life of regret? Where you know that you CAN change and make things better, you just haven't dared. That is pretty damn depressing. You need to learn to step outside of your comfort zone. But also fight the actual problem behind your eating disorder.  Because you are not doing all of this just to lose weight and be skinny. ... its more than that. And until you begin facing the actual problem and making a change in life then expect yourself to live in the same bubble 5-10 years from now.... or until you dare to make a change.


  1. Hey izzy, i was just wondering about how to deal with other's comments?

    I had a hospital admission for anorexia when i was 14 (and a few other for depression), I'm 18 now and my consultant is thinking about changing my diagnosis of anorexia to borderline personality disorder. That's just a bit of background.. anyway, i am hoping to apply for jobs soon as a healthcare worker, but my psychologist keeps saying that it's obvious from the way I look that I'm underweight and that the employers could assume things. But she also says that I'm always going to be a relatively low weight. Everything regarding eating is pretty much fine now - i don't ever restrict, do any behaviours and barely care about what i'm eating.. i just eat well to look after my body (i.e. my hair, skin etc) - with treats of course! Anyway, some of my friends and family say i look healthy/slim because i'm like 5'10 so naturally lanky. But today I went for a meeting at college and the woman i was speaking to (who didn't know i used to have an ed) was talking about a psychology uni course i'm interested in, and said "one of the modules is about eating disorders, but that may hit a bit too close to home for you maybe". Now i was quite shocked/confused. I also had a couple of people on a night out comment that i'm quite slim. I don't really see it/care about being slim, i just now feel mega self-conscious and worried that people think im still struggling with an ed. I just wanna get away from this ed... its not fair being well internally and people assuming otherwise! and i don't want this to impact my job. I don't really know what to do... because every time I gain weight, my body just wants to remain at the weight I am, and for once in my life I'm happy where I am/have been for a while now. Who do I listen to? Or do i just ignore everyone and go by my own instinct?

    Thanks so much <3 I read your blog all the time, i especially love the ones you put about the thoughts you have. I know it may be difficult to be honest on your blog about them but they definitely make me feel less alone!

    1. Ive answered this in a post coming up today, i hope that helps :)