Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Monday, April 18, 2016

Recovery reminders

Source for photos: HERE


  1. have a good week, Izzy :)

  2. How are you feeling now after your busy but exciting weekend?
    Hope you`re ok and your week has got off to a good start

  3. Hi Izzy. So I'm currently away at college and recently I've had some GI issues. But during this time I also started talking with a counselor about my ed and stuff like that and have met with a dietitian. Long story short, schools ending and they want me to tell my dad so I can continue to get treatment over the summer at the place I used to go to...I'm not opposed to treatment as I was the one who initiated the conversation with the counselor. But I really don't want to tell my dad and I feel trapped. And I'm terrified that I'll have a repeat of what happened in high school when my school counselor (who I had not met with but who said she "noticed I had lost weight", that made me angry because I never saw her :/) called my dad and said hey your daughter needs to see a doctor. Everything the school does with counseling and doctors is anonymous though and they won't tell anyone unless you're in danger of hurting yourself. I'm really not that bad and I eat everyday. The dietitian just says that I need more calcium which I think I can do. But either way, I know I won't do anything stupid over the summer. I've survived 2 years of college without doing anything stupid or losing a ridiculous amount of weight and have maintained my weight within 5-7 lbs (after having gained weight on my own), regained my period and more without my dad or anyone else's intervention. I don't really know what I'm asking from you to say but... I really don't want him to know and it would go on our insurance if I received treatment outside of school.

  4. Hi to the anonymous above. I'm not Izzy, obviously, but I just thought I'd reply to you nevertheless and hopefully some small part of what I say helps in some way.
    Firstly, congratulations on making it through so much of college and seeking out help on your own. It's really amazing that you know that really it's up to you to initiate the decision to help yourself at the end of the day. But I'm worried about why you don't want your Dad to know? If you continue getting treatment over the summer (which I really think is a good idea- things became very dark when j suddenly stopped treatment and tried to be 'normal') then you will need his support even if it's just financial. For me personally, I found explaining my ED to my dad very difficult. We've never been very close as he was always working and I felt guilty for costing him so much money to recover. But our parents want to help us in any way they can. So although my dad wasn't great emotional support, he wanted to help in the only way he knew how to- by paying for my treatment. Please please consider this. Of course, I don't know your full story but I don't want you to relapse or anything over the summer and make college more difficult for you. Also, I think what your school counsellor did was SO wrong. Yes, involving parents is sometimes necessary but she/he definitely should have spoke with you first. I think the counsellor you're currently seeing sounds great. It is definitely beneficial to keep your weight at a healthy BMI even if it is at the low end of healthy, but don't neglect your body. I'm only learning now how to stop fighting win my body. Because whenever I try and manipulate it and change it, it fights back and wins by making me so bloated and exhausted. It's best to give yourself what you know you need and help your body. Because really, it's the best way to help yourself. I'm really glad you're eating everyday but you need to really ask yourself if you're eating enough. You don't want to ruin your metabolism and while you're still young is the best time to fix it. This is kind of one of those situations where you know what you should do and what makes you feel comfortable. But doing the smart thing is definitely the right move. It's uncomfortable and difficult but it sure pays off in the long run. I promise you, you will not regret taking the tougher route that helps you in the long run. Please be kind to yourself. You sound like a lovely person but also like someone who's struggling and who's becoming her own worst enemy. Best of luck and lots of love to you xx

  5. Hey i have a question.. I have anorexia nervosa and i have been in hospital(now i am home back). I came from 56kg to 38kg. (My height is 158cm) now i have about 48 kg and i still think this is far TOO MUCH. How much time have you needed to accept your body, yourself? I have anorexia for quite a long time.