Good morning morning and back to somewhat regular blogging. Though it feels like I'm not doing such a great job of anything in my life right now, apart from maybe studying.... but even there I feel like I'm not doing enough. Right now I feel like I just sort of suck at being a human being, but I guess I can only do my best!
After my weekend of lots of study and both running and a tough workout I woke up with a super tired and heavy body as well as a tired mind so on today's agenda is to do some food prep this morning, then a lecture and then studying. And then depending on how I feel I might travel to stockholm as I have my CF appointment tomorrow or I might just travel tomorrow morning. Depends how I feel this evening when everything's done :)
This week my goal is to get as much school work done as I can. And try to get atleast 75% done with my essay and also get enough sleep as well as make sure to think positive. I definitely feel that an inner stress has built up inside of me sl I'm going to try do something about that and try some de stressing techniques. ... but in all honesty, the only de stressing technique that works for me is to be productive and get things done. But then also take my time in the evening to just sort of tune out from things and have my alone time, that's important for me and does help me to feel more relaxed as well as getting in some sort of workout each day - apart from days like today when the body just needs rest!
Anyway, so much writing about things of little importance! But I thought I would write a little update as I have mainly answered questions this weekend. So hopefully back to somewhat regular updates and advice posts :)
Your blogging is brilliant and I have spent most of the weekend thinking what a wonderful human being you are (a thought which recurs regularly, not just at weekends!). I am sorry you are down ... please know that that negative self-judgement does NOT correspond to what others perceive ... not even a little.
ReplyDeleteTake care, and have a good day. Thank you for your example, and your presence, in so, so many ways!
Naaw thank you so much for your comment. It actually put a huge smile on my face and made my morning. You are so sweet, so thank you! And I hope you have a lovely week :)
DeleteI´m having the same feeling today, feels like everyone else is having such a perfect life and i am just stuck in mine... But that´s not totally true and reading your blog really opens my eyes! :) We are still young and have so much to look forward and we are going to make so much great stuff in our life. And i think you already have ;)
ReplyDeleteIt can definitely feel that way sometimes but like you said... its not true. And comparing ourselves to others or other people's lives doesn't make it easier. Hopefully you have a better day today/rest of the week :)
DeleteI think you are doing an amazing job juggling everything the way you do, so make sure you do get your "alone time" to relax.
ReplyDeleteI hope by now your connection problems in your new apartment are fixed and you are beginning to settle in ok?
Good luck with your CF appointment tomorrow, I hope it goes well for you, you deserve some good news after the struggles you have had.
Heres to a happy, healthy and not too stressful week!
Thank you :) yeah I'm beginning to settle into the apartment :) thank you. I don't have such high hopes for the results at the cf clinic but I know the doctors are just trying to help me.
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