Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
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Monday, April 4, 2016

Health is more important than appearance

It's easy to get caught up in appearance and think that that is the only thing that matters, but in all honesty... appearance shouldnt be such a big deal, what should matter however is your health. Meaning both physical and mental health as well as other aspects of a healthy life.

The important thing is that your body and mind are healthy. It is easier to love yourself when you know that you are healthy and that your lifestyle is healthy for you. If you're body isnt healthy or there are problems with your health whether it is an infection/cold, stomach or digestion problems, broken bone or tired body or constant headache... you dont feel so vibrant, alive or content... you know there is something wrong and you know that you arent feeling 100%. Of course some issues cant always be solved, for example i cant get rid of my CF but i can make the best of it and live as healthy a life considering my illness.

Start prioritizing your health and know what is best for YOU. If you need to eat more for the sake of your health, do that. If others are all eating gluten free but you know that you like eating foods with gluten and it doesnt effect you negatively, then eat foods with gluten. If others are exercising lots, but you know that you need to rest and recover/recover from an injury etc then rest and dont care what others do. Somedays what is healthiest is a Friday night with films and snacks, other days what is healthiest is to spend a whole evening/night talking with friends or going out dancing or going for a long walk and just talking with someone. Sometimes it is sitting silently and thinking or writing down your thoughts, sometimes it is going to a therapist or someone to talk about your thoughts.

Do what is healthy for you and happiness often goes along with health, but also... a healthy and happy person usually feels better within and about themselves and often looks better to others. But feels better to themselves as well. Who cares about looking a certain way if you feel awful anyway.... i mean is a certain body image or body size really worth it if you feel awful all the time, if you cant even live life and feel insecure anyway? In my opinion, not really.... I choose health and a body that is healthy before choosing just a certain body image/size no matter how i feel, i've been there several times before and it really isnt worth it.


  1. One thing I have come to learn and accept just recently is that health is so precious, without it life is very hard indeed. That has become my priority now.
    An excellent post Izzy, you describe things so well. Thankyou.

    1. Oh yes, health is definitely a priority and it's something that can easily fade away so you need to hold on to it!! :)

  2. Thank you for this post! I've been struggling with this topic for half a year now because the ana in my head says that I can't be happy if I look like shit and it's very hard to fight that voice. But I'm trying my best and hope it'll be like u said!

    1. You won't "look like shit" just because you reach a healthy weight, that is the eating disorder and a disorder body image talking. If you treat your body right and focus on actual health, feeling good... then you begin to feel happier in your body if you also focus on self love and loving your healthy body, life and mind.

  3. It's been two years since I've 'recovered'. I out that in quotation marks because I want fully recovered two years ago. Only my weight became normal. Anyway, I've only just learnt that when it's cold, when I'm walking a lot, when I'm studying, etc my body needs more fuel. It was only when I was walking up a hill in Scotland that I realized I needed to stop. I had felt like this before- tired, dizzy and colder than most people around me. So I stopped and went into a health cafe nearby and had peanut butter on homemade bread. After that snack, I could actually enjoy my trip. I had the energy to walk further and it felt effortless. I had had a very small breakfast three hours before and I could feel the difference. Instead of just pumping caffeine into my body, I decided to get my energy from sleep and food. But of course, I still drink coffee but not just as an alternative to food like I used to in the past.

    1. That is so great to hear that you could listen to your body and recognize that you needed actual food energy not just a stimulant like coffee. Recovery is a long process I was declared healthy in 2012 but compare then to now, I am much more healthy both physically and mentally. You learn and grow and continue to see that there are small things that have held you back but you are strong enough to face them! So hopefully you keep facing those :)