Starting off the day with answering some of the questions from all the ones i recieved yesterday (and earlier). I didnt think i would get so many, so i'll work my way through as many as i can in maybe 3 posts spread out through this weekend.
This post i am just going to answer some of the "simpler" questions!!
Do you eat differently now when you buy your own food?
Yes i do. I eat very very simple and often the same foods... i dont have the budget to buy extra "fancy" things, but also i buy things which i know my body tolerates. Because there are certain foods i like but my stomach doesnt tolerate, so then if i dont have them at home i wont eat them. Also i eat basic and simple made meals, no fancy foods like i would at home where i would have more ingredients or more space and time to make "fancier" dishes.
How do you workout and how often and long?
It varies so much. I go to the gym between 3-6times a week, and go for a walk or run 1-3 times a week. How long can vary from 30 minutes to 2 hours, depending on what i do. And what i workout.... anything from circuit to low reps and high weights to high weights and low reps. Can do trisets with little rest the whole workout or rest 1-2 minutes between each set, sometimes i focus on the "base" movements and other times its a whole bunch of cable exercises or lots of body weight exercises and sometimes i do my own WOD's.... So the answer to what workouts i do and how long varies each day depending on how much energy i have, how much time i have, what i want to do, whether i have training pain in certain muscle groups and what my focus is for the workout/general workout goal at the time. XD
what's the best way to deal with suicidal thoughts?
First of all ,i am so so sorry that you are struggling and dealing with suicidal thoughts. I know how awful it is, but the first thing is to talk to someone or call a hotline, or to write out your emotions or communicate to someone in some way. And to remind yourself that things can get better tomorrow. When you are deep in those thoughts and you feel like there is no way out, you need some sort of distraction... something to get you out of those thoughts. For me personally, sometimes i just have to force myself to take a 2 hour shower to let those thoughts pass, or to sit and write or draw and listen to really loud music. Anything to keep me from doing something which could be unreversable.
You need to remember that those strong feelings and emotions, they WILL pass. When you are caught up in them they feel overwhelming and far too much, but they will pass. You need to fight through those thoughts and promise yourself or someone else to not do anything stupid. Tell yourself to wait an hour, and after that wait another hour and another hour after that... keep yourself distracted. You dont necessarily have to try to think positive or try to fake happiness, but instead think of something else. Try to be around others or maybe cuddle a pet or animal if you can? Or if you have a favourite album or artist to listen to or a favourite tv show or film, something which can make you feel a little better, or something which makes you feel less lonely. But most of all, NO self harm, no alcohol, no drugs... nothing that can harm yourself, instead use "Better" options such as drawing on your skin, or putting ice on your skin/holding ice, ripping paper, popping bubble wrap. Dont do anything rash, if the feelings are overwhelming or too much.... send someone a text, call someone or talk to someone. And know that things can get better, even if doesnt feel that way at the time.
What's your best advice for starting a new school?
Talk to people!! This is the problem i have always had each time i start a new school, Ii dont really talk to people and then i end up with no friends. So be social, say hello and try to get to know people. Focus on your school work and dont be scared to ask for help. I dont know whether you are starting a new school at the same time as others start a new school or if you are jumping right into a class in the middle of the term, also dont know how old you are i.e whether its high school or university. But know that its ok to be new and even if it can feel scary and different you will soon get settled in.
A post about maing friends/socializing
This was part one, so hopefully some of you got some answers :) And part 2 and 3 and maybe 4 coming later/tomorrow :)