Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Wednesday, March 23, 2016

Why/how i stopped counting calories

Why and how i stopped counting calories:

I realised these things:

Counting calories is not practical.
Counting calories is not normal.
Counting calories is not natural.
Counting calories isn’t even accurate.
Your body knows what it wants; it’s smarter than you are. Listen to it. 

I realised that eating a bit more yoghurt than what was on my meal plan wouldnt make me fat. I realised that i could eat a cinnamon bun or i could eat yoghurt with cereal and a sandwich. I realised that i loved chocolate covered nuts. I realised that i didnt want to spend my days counting calories. I realised i didnt want to see food in numbers. I started to taste food and enjoy food. I stopped seeing food in fat and sugar amount. I stopped seeing food as high calories or low calories. As low fat or diet foods. I began to face fear foods.

Calorie counting was something i had done for years... it was something i had spent time learning so that my head was a calculator. I could look at other peoples meals and estimate almost exactly how many calories they were eating and thats what i did. I sat at the table and looked at what other people ate and calculated how much they ate. I spent my days counting and counting how much i had eaten, how much i would have to exercise, i calculated the lowest calorie options and in my freetime i spent googling the calorie amount of all types of food.
  That information doesnt go away,.... ask me to calculate the amount of calories in a meal i eat now and i could guess pretty well. Though i dont do that because i dnot see the point. Who cares if my snack is 200 kcal or 700kcal, it doesnt make so much difference to me. My body is not a calculator. It uses the energy i eat and if my body doesnt use it... then it stoes it for later use. Somedays i eat more and somedays i eat less. Some meals are bigger some meals are smaller, it balances itsself out and so i have no need to count calories. But also...i dont even know how many calories i eat or how many calolries my body needs, not that it matters. A number.... a number which changes EVERYDAY depending on hormones, stress, activity, sleep, metabolism etc so there is no point counting calories either.
Calories are units of energy which your body needs. They are nothing to be scared of... who cares if you ate 2800 one day and 2990 the next day. Who cares if your body needs 3500kcal or 2600kcal... everybody is different. 
Food is fuel and energy, not numbers. So focus on food on eating food you enjoy, not what is lowest calories or no fat or sugar free... just choose what it is YOU like.

If you need more advice/help about how to stop counting calories.

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