Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Tuesday, March 15, 2016

What i ate - Food diary 15/3/2016

As requested, here is my "what i ate" today. I never really know what people think about these as some find it triggering, others find it motivating.
  But also, i never really think about what i eat in a whole day. I just eat when im hungry and then move on and forget about it, so even just now when i need to think about what i have eaten today it has taken some thinking time. But thats the way it should be, as long as there isnt a bunch of mindless eating throughout the day... but if you remember everything exactly, then there might be a little too much focus on food according to me!

But as always, i need to remind everyone that i eat differently everyday. For example yesterday i ate two dinners, and some days i eat breakfast at 7am, other days at 11am. And amounts are different each day as well as timing, but it works for me!!

Breakfast: Cottage cheese with peanuts and flax seeds & 2 rice cakes with spread & 3 small raw food balls.

Lunch: Home made "Pulled chicken" with garlic potatoe "balls" & vegetables & stevia ketchup.

Dinner: Quorn pieces, peanuts, vegetables, lots of potatoe salad, 75% of the bowl of nuts/chocolate covered nuts & 4 raw food balls

Night snack: 5 rice cakes with butter and potatoe salad & the small white "bowl" with peanuts and some more peanuts.

That was what i ate today and of course there has been tea, coffee and lots of water throughout the day!


  1. Hi Izzy, i've been reading your blog for a while now during my own recovery and i just want to say THANK YOU. It's so refreshing and helpful to read all your diff posts on all the diff aspects of an ED. You have helped me re focus on my recovery when having a bad ED day, you make it seem possible to recover. I'm at the stage of recovery where i am nearly at a healthy weight after being v restrictive and v underweight but i am now really struggling with binging and purging. It's really getting me down and halting my recovery when i feel i'm almost there! I have read your posts about binging etc but wondered if you could post again about how ED's (mine anyway) seem to reform and how i can stop the b/p cycle now. I've now lasted a week no b/p and it felt great but today i binged but resisted the urge to purge as i know it would mess my system up. My dietician wants me to eat normally no purging or restricting to actually see what my weight is doing now but im scared ive messed it up today however i am determined to leave it as a bad day and move on rather than turn it to a bad week.. sorry for waffling on! THANKYOU again, you are an inspiration.

    1. Hello! I am glad that my blog has been helpful and that you have come so far :)
      It's tough to go from one eating eating disorder to another, especially when you were beginning to feel free. I would suggest that you try to figure out why the binges and purges happen. ... try to connect the dots such as if you binge because you crave a food,or you are bored, or you think too much about food and then you eat and then you can't stop, or because you are really hungry or have been restricting or if you are very stressed or began taking any new medications? When you know what causes the binges it is easier to stop. But the best thing is to first stop purging... and even if you gain weight that is ok. But when yiu stop compensating you will be less likely to binge because your body won't want lots of food, but if you purge you might feel hungry again 30-60 minutes later and binge and purge again and the cycle continues. So trying to eat regular meals and follow a meal plan,maybe talk to someone about your binging and purging and when you get the thoughts about binging, try to distract yourself. And even if you find yourself caught in a binge or purge... stop it. Pull yourself away no matter how much anxiety you get.

      Know that it isn't so uncommon for people to go from one eating disorder to another, so do speak to someone and get help! !

  2. Do you have breakfast cereals, apart from oatmeal , or don`t you like them?

    1. I don't really eat breakfast cereal. I eat muslie or granola sometimes but I haven't really eaten it since I moved out but while living with my parents I eat muslie with yoghurt.

  3. Do you feel happy mentally when you have good body image days? I mean do you think about it?

    1. Hmm, i don't really think about it? I don't think my body image matters so much with my happiness levels. I mean I can have days where I feel good in my body but all I want to do is cry or I feel super negative. And I can have other days where I am super bloated and not feeling as great body wise, but still feel happy. But of course days where I feel uncomfortable in my body - which is usually due to some other factor such as stress or lack of sleep, then I might not feel as happy. But then it's more due to the lack of sleep or stress rather than the bad body image. I don't really let my body image affect my happiness levels because then it'd so easy to end up dependant on how your body looks to feel happy, rather than being happy no matter how your body looks. :)

  4. Okay thank you for your answer :) I have a hard time accepting my body because I'm overweight, and it feels *wrong?* to diet when I'm healthy from my ED.. I don't want to diet but I want to lose weight. I don't want to feel sick again :/ Do you have any tips?

  5. Do you drink milk or take it in tea/coffee? I`ve never noticed it in your food diaries so I just wondered.

    1. In my coffee and black tea I add milk :) but I don't think about it. .. haha. But I'm sure 100 - 250ml a day is used just through that. But it's not something I really have to be conscious about... apart from maybe not having a too high lactose intake ;)

  6. I truly LOVE it when you make posts about what you eat in a day. I struggle so much with restricting certain foods, so these posts gives me inspiration to include more foods in my diet. Do you think you could make a post about fear of foods? I limit my diet so much, keep eating stuff that I don´t really enjoy. My diet is so limited, and I suffer a lot with binging because of it. :-( Thank you for all the work you put in your blog. You are honestly the only blog I can read now, because you don´t promote clean eating, paleo or fitness-obession. So again - thank you so much! You are doing something really important by being so honest <3