Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.
I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.
I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: firstname.lastname@example.org
Sunday, March 20, 2016
In the past I would justify self care only if I had done something to earn it. I was only allowed to lie in bed in the evening if i had been active all day. I was only allowed to eat chocolate if i had eaten super healthy the rest of the day. I was only allowed to watch a series if i had done all my studying and all my work. I would never just treat myself or be kind to myself without earning it.
But some point in my life i realised... i dont need to earn self care. I need to learn to treat myself right and that means that somedays i need to rest and i dont need to have "earned it". And somedays i need lots of chocolate and i dont need to have earned it by eating super healthy the rest of the day.
Of course having something as a goal, such as "i can watch the latest series episode if i do all my work" that is one thing... that is a motivator, and a "feel good" when i have earned my series watching time. But i also have the balance of not being too strict and allowing myself to take care of myself without having to justify it or earn it!!
It is something which can be good to think about or remember :) That self care doesnt need to be earned!!