Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email:


Monday, March 28, 2016

One day you will look back and see how far you have come and be proud of yourself


  1. I dont know about this. My life is not so great. In fact my life suck. Dont have any tears to cry. No shoulder to rely on. I dont know why i should live. I think there is no sunny side in my life. I cannt live like this anymore. Total failure. Dont want to live anymore

    1. Ypu should not say that and you can't give up on life. I know it's tough when you are struggling and everything feels like too much and you thunk things will never get better or things will never change. But you have to keep fighting and have hope, but also try to make the change yourself. Change life or something in your life so that it gets better! You can't and shouldn't give up. ... I've been in that place so many times where life has felt hopeless and awful... just a few months ago I wanted to end my life and thought it would be better if I was dead, things didn't feel like they would get better but they have... even if there are ups and downs things have gotten better. And I know I can't and shouldn't compare because everyone has different struggles... but you can't give up. Tomorrow is a new day and you can make a change and things can get better. Think avout the things you would miss out on.... if this isn't how yo want your life to be, make a change. .. don't just end your life. It might seem like the easiest or best option, but it isn't. .. ever. Please promise me to not harm yourself and not end your life. Please call a Hotlines or reach out to someone. You can get through this. There are people that care about you. I might not know you, but it would be awful if you were to do something to end your life... that is never an ok option. Please stay safe and you can get through this <3

    2. I'm writing as "anon" but I want to second what Izzy says in reply to the anon above. You are enough, you are loved, even if you don't feel it at present. There is hope. Reach out. Stay. Please stay. If you have no one else to do it for, and if you cannot do it for yourself (though I hope you can), do it for Izzy, do it for me. <3

  2. Izzy please:
    Before anorexia I had really good marks, during anorexia there were periods I also had good marks, but now I dont feel motivated at all.
    I am at my 4ยบ year of Medicine, and I failed all my examns not because they were hard, just because I didn`t studied at all.
    I can be all day doing nothing just watching series it´s really frustating to not have any will of studying, I´m really worried.
    I have a normal family life, social life (I'm in love with my boyfriend, and really appreciate my Friends), I live in Madrid(capital of spain)and I really enjoy living here.
    But when it comes time to sit down and start learning I just can´t, i feel overwhelmed.
    From september till now I completly avoided studying I could be all day and not even read my books, that´s the reason I failed the exams.

    I feel so disapointed with my career, as I'm studying Medicine, going trough anorexia has made me feel hopeless with sanitary sistem, I don´t know if I want to become part of it.
    At the same time I think that sanitary sistema needs people how has been trough phsquiatric illness because we can give a different approach to patients.

    I read your posts and I can feel that you didn´t loose your aime of continue studying, how do you do this?
    I will really appreciate if you could write a post about being motivated in this area.
    Thank you for your advice.
    (sorry if my english gramar its not correct)

    1. I am not writing to substitute for Izzy, but I just want to say -- I had a kind of similar experience, losing motivation entirely in my final year of university after ED stuff earlier. I found that taking a year out and doing something completely different, without any particular requirement or expectation of what I would do afterward, was really, really helpful. It gave me the space and peace to heal, and to realise what was actually important to me, and differentiate that from the things that had dragged me down before.
      You don't necessarily step out of an ED into a beautiful life -- even Izzy didn't, as she has said in some of her posts. It is to be expected that you have to take space and peace to heal far more deeply than you might ever have guessed, and let life and your calling find you by listening for it rather than trying to control it or letting other things control you.
      If you keep pushing through too much of the things that have weighed you down (eg frustrations with the system), it may not be so helpful in the long term as taking time out to get some space, distance and perspective -- after which you may find you are stronger and have a clearer sense of direction about what you care about -- in medicine or whatever else you give your life to.
      I think it is great that you got over the ED at this stage, and I hope you will continue to grow into a new and fuller life.

    2. Hello,
      I am so sorry that you are struggling with studying and school motivation. Everyone studies differently and what works for one person might not work for another. We are on the opposite scale of things, as i study too much and never take a break... i can study for many hours each day but never feel like i have done enough... but that isnt so good either, as i never take a break.

      I dont know how it is in Madrid if you can take a break from studying for a while? Maybe for the autumn you do something else instead like work or travel? Or maybe during the summer you let yourself rest completely and no stress about what you "should do", because sometimes when you always feel that stress of "i have to study, i have to read, i have to do this or that" it makes you less motivated because you want freedom instead of having to do all those things. But also you have been studying for so many years already and medicine is a tough program, its not strange that you feel tired of school and studying... so it might be good to just take a break for a term and then get back to studying and finish the program and get your degree... because most often, once you finish with university you end up working and then its like you never have a break because all you have done is study and then work.

      I have some tips in my "study advice" tag which might be helpful. But find what works best for you... can you study in a group? Can you get a tutor? Maybe go to a library to study or set up a schedule on what to study each day? Whether you want to do 8 hours in total during the weekend of studying or do an hour of study each day.... Or maybe you can have a goal/reward system... such as if you pass your exam you can buy that item you wanted or do that thing you wanted. Or if you do 2 hours of studying you can then read your book or watch that series episode... ?

      Its ok to lose school motivation, i dont always feel motivated to study and somedays i dont study, but everyone is different and its important to find what works for you and ask yourself what is best for you? What is distracting you and causing you to not study? And what can you change to make it better for you and make it easier for you to study? But also if you need to, dont be scared to take a break from studying... many people do it and it can be very helpful and can help you figure out what you want to do with your life and such.
      Sometimes the best thing you can do is to just force yourself to sit in a library, read the chapters you need to, take notes and make sure to have all distractions away such as your mobile or different sites on your computer etc

  3. Thank you very much for your answers,
    I´m going to take your advice