Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

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Friday, March 11, 2016

How to stay motivated in recovery

Motivation is something that comes and goes, no matter what it is you are working towards. Whether its weight gain, weight loss, working towards an A in a certain topic, or trying to reach a goal.... you have times when you begin swaying from your goal. Wondering exactly why you are working towards that goal.... you might feel tired, find it easier to stay where you are, or to fall back to before rather than keep fighting. Because trying to reach any goal takes tough work. Commitment, patience, hard work and of course motivation.
   Motivation is what i like to call fresh produce. I.e it doesnt always last as long as you want it to. Sometimes you need to force yourself to do things you dont want to do, just because you know you have to do them. Especially when you have a goal to reach.
   For example, if someone is training to run a marathon, they might not feel like going out to run a 10km in the pouring rain. But they know that it will help them reach their goal...

And thats like recovery, you might be fully motivated one day and do everything right. But the next day the anxiety starts creeping in, you begin asking yourself why are you fighting towards recovery when eating causes so much anxiety and you begin skipping a meal. Thats basically one step forward and 2 back. That doesnt bring you closer to your goal. So you need to motivate yourself on those days where you begin questioning yourself why.

A way to keep yourself motivated is to write out your goal.... what is your goal? To be healthy? To have your life back? To be allowed to exercise etc
   And then write out HOW you will reach that goal. It can be good to have a plan, for example...goal is to gain weight: to reach that goal i need to gain 0,5-1kg a week. How will i do that... i will eat ALL my meals. I will rest. I will fight the bad thoughts.
  That can make it easier to know what you need to do when you feel like giving up. Write out those things for your goal and place them where you can see them and remind yourself.

Also putting up notes such as, you are beautiful. You dont need to change. You are perfect just the way you are. etc on mirrors, in journals, on the fridge etc and reminders that you NEED to eat can be a good motivator. A small reminder each time you see them to not give up.

Set up rewards.... this works for some, not for all. But you might want to have a reward when youve gained 5kg, because that isnt easy. And it can be nice to reward yourself... whether its a new dress, a new pair of shoes or even a box of questbars etc :)
    Or maybe when youve faced your fear food or done something that scares you, you get  a reward. Its like with dogs... when you teach them new tricks or do something like cut their claws, you give them treats to teach them the right thing :) Or like children!!

Know WHY you are trying to recover. Put up a list of all the PROS of recovery and all the CONS of being sick.... know that it is worth it to recover.

Have a way to cope with the bad times, with the negative thoughts and the anxiety. Such as writing, listening to music, talking or doing something else.

In recovery, you need to constantly motivate yourself. When you feel yourself giving up then look back at your goals, look at how far you have come. Make a list of what you need to do - such as the ED behaviour need to get rid of.... look at all the pros and good things of recovering. Make lists of what you want to do with your life, things you want to achieve etc
   All those things can help motivate you when you find it tough.

Also having a mantra or some form of motto which you can repeat to yourself when you are sitting at the table and struggling to eat or when you get anxiety or want to exercise or purge or something like that. Then keep repeating the positive mantra/motto and keep yourself calm.

I hope these tips help you to keep yourself motivated in recovery, because its not easy. But its worth it and thats the most important. Of course there are days when its tough where you do just sort of lie on the floor and want to give up. But the important thing is to not let that day become a week and then become a month. But to stop it right there... to not let yourself slide further down, but to get up and keep fighting!!!


  1. Would you like to do the 10K calories challenge?

    1. Hahah i have thought about it, and would like to do it... but at the same time i dont knwo if i would want to post it on here incase anyone suffers from binge eating and gets triggered? And i mean, it is done for entertainment and challenge purpose... so what would be the point if i didnt share it on my social media. XD Who knows, maybe i'll do it in the future if more people want to see me challenge myself, but i am guessing there are many of my readers who wouldnt think that was so fun XD

    2. No I totally understand that, but maybe you can upload it on youtube instead or something? :) If you want to of course.. I don't think I would do it, or the competitor in me wants to try, but after watching a couple of challenges it seems a lot harder than you think.. Do you think you would manage? ^^

    3. I don't actually know if I could do it or not. I'm sure I could eat maybe 6000-7000 feeling pretty full and eating ok foods, but the 3000 kcal remaining would most likely be tough (or who knows. .. Somedays my stomach is like a bottomless pit and I can eat so much). But the thing about the 10000 kcal challenge is that most people just eat junk food and j wouldn't want to eat that much junk food in a day, my body would go into total shock. But if I ate things like nuts, avocado, oil, chocolate and dried fruit etc maybe. ... haha

  2. I think you should do the 10 k challenge (:

    1. Haha, who knows maybe for Easter... ill most likely eat like 10000kcal then anyway XD

    2. What is the 10k calories challenge?? sorry, but I`ve never heard of it?

    3. It's a "competition" where people try to eat 10000 calories in one day.. You can search for it on youtube, but please do not watch if you think it triggers you in some way (I don't know if you have an ED or not:))

    4. Is that physically possible?? the mind boggles! Thanks for letting me know what it is, I`ll have to have a look at that, I`m intrigued1

    5. Haha its possible, but not without pain. If ypu aren't a competitive eater or something. But it's definitely not something for the normal person. I mean out body let's us know when we are full and when we are hungry for a reason!!

    6. I said about this to my partner and he said it was easy! He reckoned if you went for a Burger King meal - double cheese burger, large fries and milk shake then had the same again a couple of hours later...then the same again you would have had at least 10000 calories. Spread over the day it was manegable, I can see his reasoning but I couldn't do it (and he didn't offer either!)