Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email:


Friday, March 11, 2016

Friday morning energy and positivity

Good morning :)

It is Friday, it is a little past 5am (i dont know why i am awake... but like mentioned yesterday, i can wake super early and cant get back to sleep). So i thought i might as well start my day and catch up on some internet things and wait until 6.30am when it is "ok" to put on the kettle to make coffee XD

But you know what, i am energetic. I am positive. I am not tired. It is most likely all the cortisol that is released into my system upon waking up - which is what gives your body the energy after sleeping. Today i only have school from 8am-14 and then an hour or two of study after school, if i am not too tired, and then my weekend can begin!!

I am going to focus on making today a great day, and using this energy for productivity and happiness!

Now i am going to get back into some social media stuff and soon get ready to start my day for real!

I hope you all have a great day and a great weekend! Feel free to share if you have any positives from this week, or your weekend to come, or if you have anything you want to share such as recovery successes, or challenges/fears you plan to face etc


  1. Hi :) This isn't really a positive or anything but more of a question/thought I have...I feel as if I don't have a problem and even though I've started to lose weight again but still recognize that I should probably gain a few pounds, I don't see it as a bad thing even though I'm closer to my lowest weight than I have been in a long time. I guess in general I just don't think I'm that skinny or unhealthy since I eat a normal amount of food and I can eat fat and chocolate and stuff. I still have fears and thoughts inside my head but most of the time I don't act on them and if I do, it's not that extreme. Like if I restrict or eat healthy all day with little to no fat, I'm like, ok I should probably eat something else before I go to bed. I know that that's not exactly normal and I'm working on eating more "normal" throughout the day and am a lot better at it and can for the most part eat normally now. I'm not really sure where I'm going with this but I guess I want to know how crazy I am and my thinking is. And if I actually am sick because I feel like I'm so much better mentally at this weight than when I weighed more. Honestly. I mean I actually eat normal food now on a regular basis, my weights just low and sometime I get sick thoughts, but not as much as before...I should probably end now as I have a paper to write :p good luck with school stuff! :)

    1. An eating disorder isn't just about weight or food, it's about the way you think. And even if you eat what you think is "normal", if you are losing weight yiu aren't eating enough. But also if you are close to your lowest weight, I am guessing that isn't such a healthy weight then?

      When I was relapsing and was going through my restrict, binge, purge, repeat cycle. I still thought I was healthy because I did eat when I was with others. ... or I could atleast eat, compared to before when I didn't eat at all. And I thought my weight was fine, despite being 5-7kg away from my healthy lowest weight. .. but because I wasn't as underweight as I had been I thought I was fine. But I think you know yourself that your thoughts and habits aren't healthy. .. that you could be in a much better place if you keep fighting and go against those thoughts in your head. Forget your weight for a while. .. but focus on your thoughts and behaviours, they don't seem so healthy. But like mentioned if you've lost weight you aren't eating enough.

      So its great that you have made progress, but don't give up now. Don't stay in half recovery, your mind is still sick and maybe your body as well. So keep fighting and don't stay in half recovery, you have to fight all the ed thoughts! You can do it!!