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And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

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Saturday, March 26, 2016

Easter and my Easter cake 2016

As tradition - and enjoyment, i made an Easter cake this year! Instead of going out 150% on my cake as i usually do and either making one huge cake or 2 types of weird "extra" cakes, i decided to opt for simple today. A chocolate and orange cheesecake... simple and so delicious :) There is going to be so much chocolate eaten so if i made a huge chocolate cake it would just be too much. The recipe for the cake is from HERE, and i can say that the cake tastes super good!!  :)

To celebrate Easter i am going to my step dads mothers place (can i call her a step grandmother? hahah) with my family and we are going to have a late lunch/dinner there.

For me personally Easter isnt that special anymore... it feels like it's a big deal to kids as they get chocolate or candy, and i guess when you are an adult you get free days from work and to spend time with family. But Easter doesnt feel that special, unlike Christmas which feels more special... maybe its just me. But if i could i would actually work during these days if i had work, or it wouldnt really matter if we didnt celebrate. Maybe its just me who doesnt feel so "hype" about things at the moment, or maybe its just that i am older and special occasions like this dont feel like a big deal anymore.... like i have never thought birthdays are that special. The only reason i have liked my birthday the past few years is that i get to bake a cake and go out for brunch to celebrate... haha, but otherwise birthdays arent so special for me.

Anyway, currently i have so much stomach pain so going to just lie down and hopefully the pain will pass so that i can enjoy the lunch/dinner later!

I know most people celebrate tomorrow - Sunday, so i wish you all an Early Happy Easter :) And whether you celebrate or not, make Sunday an awesome day and be kind to yourself.

Chocolate wont harm you, neither will potatoes or dessert. Food is energy. And resting wont harm you either!!! And if you do binge, stay calm... tomorrow will be a new day and the best thing you can do is to distract yourself and not be alone with food if you binge. But the most important thing, give your body food and nourishment. Restricting and starving yourself wont help you at all. Your body needs energy and nourishment to function!!!

Dont let food control you and dont let your eating disorder control you. You can get through this weekend, if you find it overwhelming, you can get through it!!
















15 comments:

  1. I love how you call that a simple cake!!! Haha! but it looks delicious!! Happy Easter!

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    1. Haahah, that was my "Back to basics" cake XD I guess i have quite high goals when it comes to cake making!! I hope you had a lovely Easter.

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  2. Your freckles /spots are so cute. I hope you don't find that weird but I just noticed them on your arms. (: and that cake looks good. Hope your stomach pain passes. X

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    1. Hahah, i have never had anyone comment that before! Ii have lots of freckles and spots.. i find it so strange when i see people who have no spots or freckles XD
      The cake tasted delicious :) I hope you have a lovely weekend and have a lovely week.

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  3. The cake looks delicious and you look great. Have a lovely easter Izzy

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    1. Thank you :) The cake tasted delicious. I hope you had a lovely weekend as well.

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  4. Izzy is it possible to get refeeding syndrome after eating about 3000-4000 calories for 2 days in a row. I am seriously underweighht and havent been eating much lately but Last Two days it was like extrene hunger. I felt diZzy and bad... Now im so worried i will gain weight is it possible after just Two Days? I feel so guilty and bad... It is all so horrible i am so sorry but as You know a lot about NUTRITION would You ansewer me?

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    1. If ypu have gone straight from eating very little to eating 3000-4000kcal then it can cause refeeding syndrome, though that is quite serious and would require medical care. I would suggest that you aim to gradually increase your calories over time and maybe begin with 1500-2000kcal a day as it can be a huge shock for the body to go from little to food to lots at once. It will give your body timr to adapt as well. Regarding weight gain... you need to gain weight and you goal should be weight gain. In the beginning you might gain "alot" but it is alot of water weight as well, so seeing the number on the scale after rhe first two - three weeks isn't to be recommended as the body holds onto water as well. Your body needs food and to gain weight and the extreme hunger is because your body so desperately wants food, so do allow yourself to eat as your body needs it and try not to feel guilty over it. You are doing a good thing by eating and it's better to eat more than less in your condition. Your body needs food and rest and it's important to accept that, and to face your fears during recovery. Keep eating, your body needs it.

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  5. This cake! I still umm and err when deciding about having dessert but THIS I would definitely eat in a heartbeat

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    1. It was sooooo good, and if you enjoy baking or enjoy cheesecakes then i can definitely recommend this cake, it got thumbs up from everyone! And if you want dessert, then it should definitely be eaten and not a second thought given :)

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  6. Happy Easter Izzy. Wow, beautiful but talented as well! My house will be full of Easter chocolates with the kids all excited. It's priceless to see their little faces, even if they are covered in chocolate, Haha. xx

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    1. I hope you had a lovely Easter :) Children on Easter are so cute and always so happy... well, when they get the chocolate anyway, they often hate the waiting time until they get chocolate!!

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  7. Your cake looked lovely - but all that cream - stomach ache on a plate for me! But I may give it a go for my partner, he loves chocolate orange.
    I love the way your little dog gets into the background in your photos, I guess she was after the cake! Do you allow her a little treat now and again? I remember my nans dog, horrendously spoilt, had to have a saucer of tea and a chocolate kit kat biscuit whenever they had one - I thought chocolate was harmful to dogs but it never seemed to do her any harm!
    Hope you have a good couple of days over Easter - even if you don`t celebrate its a break from the usual routine and a chance to catch up with family. Are you seeing your boyfriend over Easter?
    We`ve just got back from a walk around the park, and it started bucketing down with rain whilst we were out and we ended up getting absolutely soaked - wet jeans are not nice! So its back home to dry off and warm up with a hot drink, not sure what we`re doing for the rest of the day, storms are forecast so its a case of finding something on tv and just chilling!
    Sorry to hear your tummy pains are back - do you think you should go back to your doctor if they are becoming more frequent?
    Take care and have a lovely Easter - whatever you are doing!

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    1. If there is food, then Daisy will be there!! We do give her treats during special occasions, but currently she is on a diet as she was getting fed too often and we took her to the vet and said it might cause health problems for her, so now we are more strict with how much and what she gets too eat! But she did get some salmon and little bits from me... i cant resist her puppy eyes!

      I spent the night at my boyfriends place on Friday, so i got some time with him. BUt we dont see each other so often at the moment as he works so often and i am not in Stockholm so often. But for now it works anyway.

      I hope you have a lovely week :)

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  8. I love Daisy peeping up from behind the cake - she is so funny!

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