Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

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Tuesday, March 15, 2016

Don't waste your life obsessing over your body

Far  too many people forget to live life as they are far too consumed and obsessed with having "the perfect body". Life is just a set of routines and habits all trying to achieve a sort of dream body. But that goal just seems to get further away as you become less happy, more strict and you lose yourself and your life in the search for perfect body.

When you're 80, if you even live that long,do you want your life and memories just to be: working out, thinking about food, sleeping. Anxiety, fear, hate.

And unless you make changes that is how the rest of your life will be.

Saying no to meeting friends as it means you have to miss your workout.

Not going to sleep overs or staying out late, whether it means movie night at friends houses or going out dancing, just because it will mess with your routine or you won't be able to eat your normal,  safe foods.

Not going on holiday or weekends away as it means change of routine.

Never doing anything spontaneous.

Saying no to dining out or saying no to trying new foods or things that family or friends have baked.

Life is about being lived and doing new things. Stepping outside of your comfort zone and daring to live.

It's ok to want to look and feel good, because that's what everyone wants, but it shouldn't take over your life. It's ok to spend time at the gym and working out, but if that is all you do and ypu can't change your routine or habits, then that's not much of a life. And it's ok to want to eat nourishing foods and maybe meal prep. But you shouldn't be so strict that you can't waver from that plan at all. To not allow yourself to eat any different foods or try anything new.... that's boring. Think of all the new and exciting food there is and all you eat is the same - always. Of course it's ok to eat the same food if you love and enjoy that food, but being too scared or strict to try new foods,  that's not much of a life.

Don't get caught up in body obsession and wanting the perfect body so you forget to live life. I've been there and I regret it.

I said no to holidays and travelling.  I said no to parties and family get together.  I didn't meet friends. I didn't try new foods. I made choices I didn't want to make, but my body obsession made me choose. It was not a life. I couldn't even appreciate my body because I was far too focused on change.

Bloating ruined my day. I pushed through tiredness. I was angry, tired, irritated. My goal of looking a certain way kept me from living life and when I realised that I had to make changes. Focus on actually living life.

And living life sometimes means lying in bed and eating chocolate, it sometimes means meeting friends and eating dinner together, it means long walks with my sister or movie nights wuth my boyfriend. It means energy and working out and Somedays tiredness and a day in bed. It means sometimes eating far too much and other days forgetting to eat enough. It means sometimes buying lunch out  and sometimes eating from food boxes. It means experiencing new things, trying new foods and making memories. Treating my body right and not just trying to make myself look a certain way.

Life is meant to be lived. The body changes and you can't do anything about that.  In the future you will want a functioning body, not just a body with abs and a thigh gap.


  1. Ville väl bara skriva ett jättestort TACK för att du finns och att du bloggar. Du hjälper så otroligt många, mig inräknat. Du är guld värd!<3

    1. Vad gullig du är!! Tack så mycket, vad glad jag bli att min blogg hjälper! Ha en bra fortsätt vecka och hoppas allt är bra med dig :)

  2. One thing my grandmother said when she was dying really stuck with me. She said, "I wish I had ate more donuts and not worried about it so much.". This coming from a beautiful, gentle, sweet, and strong woman. I was really saddened and shocked that even my grandma had spent time worrying about her figure. And it was really profound to me at the time because it put my own thoughts in perspective. She regretted the time she wasted worrying about her figure, but had no regrets about the times she just said "yes!" to life. It was the last lesson I got from her and I think of it often when I start getting into the zone of picking myself apart. Something to think about!

    1. That is a great life lesson and if only more people would realise it when they were young. Ypu don't need to eat 12 donuts at once, but if you want a donut then you should eat one and enjoy it and not worry so much about your weight or body, as life is too short for that. But of course it is about being healthy as well as happy!