Life without Anorexia
My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'
I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.
I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.
I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.
I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: email@example.com
Saturday, March 5, 2016
Change your thoughts, change your life
Your thoughts are what steer you. If you are thinking negatively, then everything else will just feel negative. You wont see the positive or good things because you are caught up in the negative. For example when you have lots of anxiety then everything just feels awful... life, other people, your current situation, your future, your past (?), nothing seems positive or good. But that is because you are just focusing on the negatives, but if you instead could try to think about something positive. And i know how tough it is.... and i know that positive thinking doesnt solve everything and it doesnt make a mental illness go away. But it sure wont make it worse.
I got critique for "thinking positive" and trying to stay positive. But my outlook is that... positive thinking wont make things worse. As long as i amnt trying to fool myself, but i think that if you try to stay positive always it will make things somewhat better. It isnt always possible, sometimes life is awful or the situation you are in is down right awful and you just need a few moments to cry, scream, feel negative and so on. But after that, you get yourself together and you begin seeing the positives even if they are far fetched at times... there are always sometype of positive. Even if it means you have to look into the future, for example see the positives after the situation is over/Problem is solved.
Small positive thoughts about yourself, your life and life in general can make a big difference. Even if it doesnt make the problem go away and it wont cure you, but it wont make things worse. So why not try it :)
Your thoughts control and steer you, and if you choose to just think negative then your life will feel very negative.
I mean you could think... "i hate that i am being forced to eat. I hate being in treatment and having to gain weight" or you could think "People care about me and are trying to help me. I might not realise it now and i might not like it, but these people care about me. And gaining weight is helping my body and making me stronger. Ii might not feel better or stronger now, but one day i will accept my body and know that the weight gain was good. For now all i can do is eat, and be thankful that i have food and that people are helping me to get better". And i KNOW it is not easy to think like that when you are sitting with food/fear food infront of you. Then you would rather cry, scream and run away than sit there and be thankful that people are making you eat. But why not atleast try to think somewhat positive, it can definitely make it easier :) And know, its not easy... but it can be easier.