The title basically says what i am going to write about in this post... so if none of it interests you, i guess you can skip this post, haha!
So.... this morning i decided it was time to run outside again, properly... for the first time in forever. Sure ive run outside for like 500m, hahaha. But it has been one thing after the other that has stopped me from running.... started with 1) lack of motivation due to too much traning, 2) my breathing got harder and that affected my running negatively, 3) knee pain, 4) back pain, 5) hip pain.... and then the weather te past few months has been a big factor as the snow and ice has stopped me from wanting to run outside. And i havent even done intervals on the treadmill because of all the factors above. And then it just got to a stage where... i knew i would have to start at the bottom again, and i have had a hard time accepting that. I know what i have been able to do, the distance and speed i have been able to run so i havent been able to accept that i have to start by just running 1km and not jumping into a 10km or expecting to run 21km after running 3 times. And mentally... i havent been able to accept that, so i havent even tried running at all... because if i cant run 10km, what is the point...or so that is how i have thought up until now. But i told myself.... i love running, and i know i can get back to where i once was before, but that means training and beginning from the bottom again. And i will see and feel progress.
So today, finally i decided to test running outside (after running on the treadmill for 10 minutes a few days ago and realising that my knees, hip and back didnt cause pain and i didnt feel like fainting from lack of oxygen). How did it go today.... it went fine and i enjoyed every moment of it... or well the first 5km went fine and i ran it without pain and without feeling like fainting, but the last 3km home again i had to stop and walk at times as my lungs weren't getting the oxygen they needed. But it felt so amazing and now all i am thinking is.... when can i run again!! And hopefully now i will try to run outside 1-3 times a week and keep progressing and hopefully be able to breathe better, get back to my normal pace (though it wasnt a slow pace at all, which i was surprised over!) and maybe even run races this summer which i didnt think i would do at all due to the non existent running!! haha.
Anyway, once i got home things took a negative turn and after a late breakfast/lunch i got so much stomach pain, and i still have no idea why.... it wasnt any weird food or food that causes pain. But it was like knives were sticking into my stomach and i had to lie in a curled ball for a while until eventually the pain passed. I am wondering if maybe it was the running... exherting my body or something as burpees and strength training is one thing, but running is another.... not so sure. The pain isnt completely gone, but i was able to walk to the store and buy something to eat anyway as the last thing i wanted to eat was quorn or vegetables... infact just the thought of those foods (rather hard to digest foods) makes me feel nauseous. So instead i resorted to 3 easy things to give me energy as my food intake has been far from adequate and also somewhat able to keep down. So my snacks were cookie dough ice cream, yoghurt covered nuts and strawberries.... and atleast some of this has been able to be eaten before the "knives in my stomach" pain kicked in again :( But working through the pain and writing on my essay now as well as studying... So that is my plan for the evening... try to eat what i can and do as much work as i can!
Tomorrow is another long study day and then on Friday back to Stockholm to meet my family and celebrate Easter. (cancelled my appointment at the hospital... which maybe isnt so smart, but i am a little scared that they would want to admit me, so i rather wait another week where i do running and take inhalers and such and hopefully things will be better!).
For now... back to work :) How has your day been?