And since coming home (at 10.30am) the only real thing i have done is make bread (which was basically mix the package with yeast and water... then let the dough yeast and then bake it after roughly an hour.) And that is pretty much what i have done.... though the past few hours since about 11am until now 3pm i hve sat at the kicthen table but have been unable to get anything done.
The onlythought in my mind is, I dont want to. No information is going into my mind and nothing is being remembered. I guess i just feel a little overwhelmed, i feel like it is SO MUCH to learn... so many small details. I mean remembering lots of detailed chemistry and all the processes in the body and knowing what cells do and which hormones are released when and why. So much and even if its interesting, its alot of information to try to remember and today my brain doesnt want to remember... my brain wants a break, hahaha. I am longing for the weekend like crazy, because then i will have a 2 day "break" where i dont really need to study, though i need to read some chapters and prepare some information for a seminar which i have in 2 weeks, but its not really study... its more to have an understanding of certain subjects and do some research.
Days like this where i just cant seem to study i always get anxiety over the fact that i amnt being productive and amnt using my time wisely but i just need to remind myself that I am only a human and somedays it just doesnt work to study... It feels like the more stressed and more pressure i put on myself to study X hours the day, the harder it is. And when i dont study i stress myself and just feel worse... when i need to just accept that today its not going to work.... no matter how many hours i sit with my notes and papers infront of me, the information is not going to stay in my mind.... I just sort of need to accept that the best thing i can do today is something other than studying...
So for now, i am going to try do something else for an hour or two and see if i can get something done this evening instead!!!
I hope you all have a great day :)
I found this quote below, which pretty much sums up my day today: