Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Tuesday, February 2, 2016

Take back control over your life

This image might seem harsh for some, for others it might be an eye opener. Because in all honesty. ... we have this one life. And how do you want to spend it? Unhappy, sad, unmotivated and waiting to die? 

Of course life isn't always easy, and when you struggle with a mental illness it's not always a choice, something else is controlling you. But you still have a choice to recover and to do something differently. 

Life what what you make it. How you think and what choices you make.

Realise that eating pizza, chocolate or going out for a 3 course dinner isn't the end of the world. It's not the end of the world if you do less or no exercise.

Think of the times you panicked and thought, I can't do this, but then you did. Those times you thought you could never keep going, or those foods you thought you would gain 5kg from eating but you didn't.  You could get through those so you can get through future events.

Don't waste your life. Don't live an unhappy life. But also, dont let your mental illness control you. Take your life back so you can make YOUR own choices, not so that a voice in your head forces you to make choices you dont want to. Take back control of your own life!! Because in the end... do you want your whole life to pass you by and realise that you never really got to live the life you wanted?

Recovery isnt easy, but you need to find the motivation and the will to keep fighting for it everyday!!


  1. yes its very hard to keep the motivation going everyday. When I begin to waver and star having second thoughts about eating - ie the old behaviours resurface I just ask myself do I really want to stay stuck like this forever, go backwards only to have to do all the pain and discomfort of recovery again....and the answer is always no so I`ve started to plough on regardless. I`ve got to thinking that this pain is going to be temporary and it will pass, and the only way is to go through it....and come out the other side a healthier me. Those reminders have kept me going, particularly lately when it has been so tough I was on the edge of relapsing.
    So yes, the images are shocking but sometimes you just can`t dress the truth up nicely, we need stark reminders, that's the truth of it when all is said and done.

    1. This is a great way to think and so beneficial in recovery. Because the feelings, the anxiety, the guilt it is only temporary, but it will pass and you are stronger than those feelings!! And if you get through the tough times YOU get stronger and it gets easier :)

      Stay strong and keep fighting, know that you are doing the right thing by going against your eating disorder, even if it may not always seem like it.

  2. one of the things that keeps me going through all sorts of different kinds of battles with thoughts and habits is sheer curiosity -- if one never gets past the patterns of thinking and/or acting that trap one, then one never gets to find out what is on the other side, in life itself. And i want to know! life is exciting, but we only get to taste and experience as much as we can grow into.

    1. This is such a smart way of thinking :) Llife is exciting, and if you dont challenge yourself or find out what is on the other side... how will you know. Because i mean you can always go back, but also you know how it is to be in this situation, why not try something new!!

  3. All I have to say is, Wow, that incredibly eye opening and true and really puts things into perspective. Thanks for posting it :)

  4. I just posted the comment above and when it asked me to verify that I wasn't a robot it showed me a bunch of food pictures and was like, pick the candy pictures...Now time to go get some actual candy! :D

    1. Hahaha, follow the sign.... :) I hope you enjoyed the candy!!!