I hate tests. They are the worst but then again essays and pretty awful as well, but i hate with tests how you sort of need to know everything and you can prepare but at the same time there is always those questions which you just dont have the answer to and you cant just research or google... youeither have to know the answer or you dont.
Im not feeling confident going into tomorrows tests, but i feel that i dont want to overstress myself when infact i have 2 other chances to redo the test if it doesnt go so well and i can only do my best. But i need to remember that i need my mental health to last... i cant study so much that i break down, because then who cares about the test if m ymental health is at 0. One positive thing i have learnt from last year anyway... that studying is important but so is my mental health and i cant stress myself so much over one test.
One thing which i am worried about tomorrow though is waking up in time.... my test starts at 8 so i want to be there for 7.30 and well, i need to wake up in time... and ive had some trouble with that recently where i have slept through my alarms. So a part of me wants to not sleep at all so that i dont have to worry about waking up (stupid idea)... i just really hope i wake up in time. XD
Otherwise.... i had a really weird experience a short while ago. So there was a knock on the door and first off i didnt want to open, but then i thought it might be the people who are going to fix a cupboard in our kitchen. And the last time i didnt open the door when someone knocked, they opened it anyway as they were working for the builing and had to fix a water pipe that had broken.... so i was sitting there studying and then a man walked into the kitchen (this was last week/two weeks ago), and i didnt want the same thing to happen. So i opened the door and there stood a man and said he was going to buy my freezer.... i was super confused thinking, did my room mate forget to mention something to me. But then i was like, we cant sell our freezer because then we wont have one so this doesnt make sense.... So i told him he had to wrong door and that we werent selling our freezer, but he kept trying to talk and i kept trying to close my door as i was getting a weird vibe from the man. The man had a very weird stare, an analzying and creepy stare and he was like "you bite your nails, are you stressed?", and i just smiled and said yeah.. i was studying for a test tomorrow so needed to get back to that. And then before i closed the door he was like "you look tired"... and then i closed the door. All in all a super weird experience and i feel a little creeped out. I hate how there is no peephole in the door so i cant see who it is that is knocking, because generally speaking i dont want to open for strangers.... and the man was just super creepy and seemed to really want to get into the apartment, and i just worry that maybe hes seen into the apartment and seen that i am alone or something like that... i dont know. I think this is the worst thing about living alone, when you just feel creeped out.
But anyway, i am now taking a pause from my unproductive studying and am going to eat some dinner and then another hour or two to just look over small details and then hopefully an early nights sleep and tomorrow it is test time!!!
Blogging isnt so great at the moment but ill be back tomorrow afternoon when i am done with my test!!