Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

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Friday, February 5, 2016

Feeling like you need to eat less than others

I think we've all had times when we've felt embarrassed about the ain't we eat. Feel like you need to defend yourself or you've gotten comments about the amount you eat. Those comments can be off putting and make you feel like you shouldn't eat the amount you want because you will be judged. You feel like you need to eat a tiny amount so that people won't judge the amount you eat or just because that makes you feel better about yourself (according to your eating disorder) because you ate less than everyone else.

Some people judge you or make a comment when you eat what is deemed like "alot" in their eyes,but they are just stupid and it's those types of comments you should just disregard completely. For me, one of the catalyst factors for my eating disorder was getting a comment about my food intake and it's been one of the things I have struggled alot with during and after recovery.  But can now mostly shake those off and not care about them. Eat the amount I want because I don't care what others think.  Everyone is different and we all have days we are extra hungry and you need 3 portions before you feel full. And there is nothing wrong with that, what is wrong is eating little because you are scared of being judged and then going home and eating lots because you weren't filly satisfied. That is not normal!!!! I have done this alot in my life because I have been too scared to eat the amount I wanted, of course at times it happens when you just can't eat the amount you want because there is not enough food or the food you got served was very little.  So that's different,but purposely only eating half your plate so that it seems like you don't eat alot is just silly. ....  you don't need to deny yourself food.  You don't need to be ashamed of eating, your body needs food. And don't  care what people think about you or your intake.

Unfortunately, there will be people who judge. ... but they shouldn't matter.  It takes time to learn to not care about other people's opinions. To learn to feel relaxed around food and eat the amount you need. You are NOT a better person or  a stronger person for eating less. If anything you are being silly and/or stupid for only eating a small amount and then eating more secret.  That is not healthy behaviour.... and  don't take that as being mean, but I'm being honest... I've done it myself,  far too often in my life. But it's not a healthy behaviour or mindset. Dealing with food comments is hard, it takes time but learn to shrug them off and not care, because unless they are comments to help you then they are irrelevant. Focus on what your body needs  not what some people think of your food intake.

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  1. Ah, this hits home with me!
    When I'm out with others and they pass an innocent comment like "Wow, that's a lot of food you got there!" or "You gonna be able to finish that?" it makes me feel like it'd be greedy or gluttonous to finish it all.

    Likewise, when someone else has a smaller portion and says they're full, I wonder what on earth is wrong with me that I've eaten way more than what they have and could still eat more!

    Almost all the time it's never meant maliciously, but it still hurts. As you say, I try to tell myself that eating less than everyone else isn't normal (unless of course, I genuinely feel full).
    Thank you for this post, we've all gotta focus on listening to our bodies, even when they speak very quietly. :-)

    1. Those comments are always annoying, but the best thing is to try to shake them off or tell people directly that you dont like those comments or that they are unnecessary, otherwise they wont learn. Your body knows how much it needs and you should listen to that, no matter what others eat. Somedays you might eat less and be full after 3/4, and other times you can eat 2 or 3 portions, and its nobody elses businness (unless it's for health reasons!). People seem to enjoy commenting about other peoples food... getting caught up in other peoples business so to say, but you know better. Dont let comments stop you from treating your body right and eating the amount you need :)

  2. people comment on food all the time though don`t they - whether its they like the look of what someone else is eating or the quanity that they or others are eating. I don`t know why this is but I share your feelings that I find it off putting. I`m quite sensitive to this, maybe I take it to heart too much but I could do without the comments, how ever innocent intended they maybe

    1. Ohh yes, comments all the time. Infact my boyfriend always seems to comment when food i eat doesnt look appetizing or doesnt taste good or he doesnt like it or thinks it looks like X.... i find those comments annoying, because 1) I like the food, 2)Its me eating it and 3) You dont need to say my food looks like something else.... hahaha. Its like if he is going to eat bacon, i am not going to sit there and say it is disgusting and looks disgusting etc just because i dont eat or like bacon. But some people get a little too caught up in what others are eating, rather than focusing on themselves and what they eat.

      I think the best thing you can do is tell the people... otherwise they wont learn and they will continue to make comments about other peoples food as well. But if you just say "Dont comment about my food" or tell them that it is unnecesssary or rude, they might think twice before doing it again.