Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Thursday, January 14, 2016

Positive and energetic morning

Good morning :) well it's not morning for me and it's likely not morning for you either. ...but for some reason I prefer saying good morning. As if I am starting off the day with a post, haha. And who knows... its morning for someone right now maybe!!

This morning I woke up and just felt happy. For some reason. I felt positive and energetic!! It felt different today compared to other days. So I made myself breakfast - plain yoghurt,  muslie (really I should avoid dried fruit, but I love raisins and really don't feel like picking them out so I make an exception! ) & 2 eggs and 1 egg white as well as my coffee for the day! Then I did my regular online checking - I have a bunch of sites to check each morning I. E different apartment/housing sites, my university profile, my email, different FB groups etc etc and all that takes 30-45 minutes and then I blog and then I headed off to the gym.

The walk to the gym however was very unpleasant. It was so cold today. as soon as I stepped  outside it was like the blood in my fingers began to freeze and my face felt super cold. And during my walk my bag kept falling off my shoulder,  my earphones kept falling out of my ears, I could barely move my hands and fingers from the cold and then I got a sort of brain freeze from the cold. And then with 10 minutes left to walk my bladder began to complain.... hahaha. So it was a sort of half run, waddle the rest of the walk. Hahhaha ha.  I was one cold mess when i got to the gym ^-^

I didn't think my workout would go so well as I felt so frozen but after warming up and beginning to workout it went so well. Much better than its gone the past 2 weeks.  I had so much energy and actually surprised myself at what I was capable of. I guess I have to thank all the food I ate yesterday. ....a stomach like a black hole and a mindset of f**k it, I'll eat everything until I'm satisfied. Which lead to maybe 1500-2000kcal just in the evening. (Not a binge, just super hungry for some reason ). And well, all that energy showed itself today! (And note.... you don't have to exercise the next day just because you ate lots the day before ;);) the body knows what to do with extra calories and ypu need to listen to your body. If you are super hungry it is for a reason,  so eat!

Also today my dad is coming to Sweden and staying for the weekend! Though I won't get to see him until tomorrow but it's nice that he is here for the weekend :) also going to see my boyfriend this evening, I've had a bit of a sore throat the past few days so haven't seen him as I just wanted to rest up (I didn't workout the days I had a sore throat ;) ). It's kind of upsetting though as he seems to be super sad about me starting university and moving once I get an apartment/room. And it is understandable, but for me I am just excited about the changes and looking forward to moving so it's like I can't quite put myself in his situation and also I know that it's barely any distance so it's not like it's a "long distance relationship " because it's not that far away..... but I guess all I can do is comfort him and try to make him realise that he doesn't need to worry. I mean whatever happens, happens. I have always been very clear and honest about the fact that my education will always come before anything else and I would choose my education before a relationship, but luckily I don't have to choose... but if he were to put me in the situation where I had to choose I would choose an education. Just like I put my studies before working out and social time.... that's just how I am.

Anyway,  now it's home to clean my room and eat!!! :)

I hope you all have a lovely day :)


  1. I'm so glad that you are so happy today, it puts a smile on my face :) also the way your post is written is somehow different, it just seems so much more positive! I really hope that your happiness will last, keep going girl :)

    1. Thank you :) I hope it lasts too! My goal is to be as positive as possible!! I hope you have had a lovely day :)

    2. Unfortunately, my day hadn't been great at all, despite not having school - it was full of tears... But I will keep fighting to be happy again one day :)

  2. Well its morning for me - and its really cold here, so double jumpers and central heating for me!
    Hope you had a lovely evening and have a good weekend with your Dad.