Hello there *insert smiley and wave emoticon* ^-^
Time for an update on life... I always plan to write posts and mention certain things but then I just sort of forget. Or well I mentally write the post but not physically. ..
So first off, yesterday I went to look at a room in an apartment and it was a really nice apartment, the 4 others living there were super friendly and nice as well and it seemed like my chances of getting the room were high. Though there was quite a high competition for that room and many who were going to look at it, so I was informed today that I didn't get the room. And I'm not going to let that bother me, though I guess I did think I had quite a high chance of getting to live there.... but that's life and it's just to keep searching. One thing I wonder though is what made them not want me (hahah, sounds like I have a self esteem of 200 and think I'm perfect. That's not the case). But I'm wondering whether it was 1) they didn't think we were compatible or they didn't like me 2) maybe they thought I would only love there 6 months because that's how long my course is 3) maybe they googled me, found my blog and didn't like that or 4) and I'm guessing this is the most probable reason, someone else needed rhe room more desperately than me or they were more compatible with one of the other people searching. I'm guessing that's the cause, but I can't quite get the idea out of my mind that if you Google my name my blog comes up.... and maybe that will put people off from having me rent a room/live in their house? I don't know... it shouldn't be a factor, but who knows.
Anyway, that was that. I'll just keep searching for rooms or apartments!
Last night was a long sleepless night. So much anxiety about everything and couldn't sleep at all, so my total sleep for the night was about 1 hour and then I woke at 5.30 and eventually decided to take daisy for a walk as I wasn't able to get back to sleep. Then I got ready, ate breakfast and headed to the hospital with my mum.
As I sat in the waiting room I felt how I was going to panic, I didn't want to be there and it didn't help when I got a paper note with all my information and stating I was going to be an inpatient and have IV treatment for 10+days. Then I was ready to walk out of there. But after some tests and meeting a doctor, a new doctor, we talked and as the tests showed improvement from last time and because I am going to start university and not be in Stockholm i was allowed to avoid iv antibiotics and instead back on oral medication and if my health doesn't keep improving then I might have to have the iv treatment during summer or spring/easter break.
So I was atleast able to leave there wuth a smile, somewhat!! And more motivation to keep running as that has helped my lungs alot it seems. Though of course I feel how hard it is to breathe the past while.... like having a belt around my lungs and often while lying down I can't breathe properly and need to sit up or stand up to be able to breathe. .... its tough, haha.
After the hospital appointment I headed home, wanted to go to the gym but I knew it would be silly after so little sleep. So instead made myself pancakes with chocolate and nuts, took a long bath and read, watched some series and then fell asleep with my heating blanket keeping me warm!! It's super cold in Sweden at the moment and when you're out for long if you have any "water" it will frost, such as parts of my hair had begun to frost after I had been outside this morning and the tips of my fingers burn from being so cold! !!
And finally, after this already long post. There is lots of stress and things to do. Papers to send in, people to call, money to try to round up, bills to be paid, things to be bought etx etc so that means that not alot of time is going to my blog or answering emails. Alot of other things to worry about at the moment so to say, so emails aren't a priority which I apologise for as my inbox is overflowing with emails from you all at the moment. And I do wish I could help you all, though that would require more than 24 hours in a day and more mental energy than I have at the moment. So hopefully you understand and can leave comments or find advice on my blog :)