Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
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Wednesday, January 27, 2016

Happiness is fragile

Positivity is not always easy. Sometimes it is alot easier to just see the negatives, to allow the negatives to take over, to wallow in self pity and grief. But negativity and always being negative wont help anything. Even on the darkest days i do my best to try to be positive, to get up and try to follow routines.... why? Because i believe it is better to do that - fake it till you make it - than to just sit and let the darkness overwhelm you.

Sitting around miserable all day won’t make you any happier.
— John BoyneThe Boy in the Striped Pajamas

Some readers have called me fake, that i am faking how i am feeling just because i seem to manage life. THat is their opinion, but as written many times before.... mental illnesses show themselves in different ways and not everyone suffers in the same way. For me, i dont think positive thinking will cure everything, but i sure as hell dont think it will make things worse. I think that if you just sit and think negative all the time, you arent even trying to make  yourself better (and i KNOW it is not easy to change negative thoughts, it is something you have to work on all the time and get better at thinking positive). But i want to be the optimistic and positive person, that is my aim and i believe that will get me further in life than just being negative.... such as if something goes wrong, i will find 5 other ways to make things go right, not just see the one way that went wrong and get caught up on that. Even if everything feels negative and dark, i will still find that one positive. It works for me, maybe it wont work for everyone.... but i think it atleast helps somewhat, it cant make things worse anyway, so why not!! I believe in being positive and seeing the best in things... but also allowing yourself to feel angry and sad if that is what is necessary. I mean you cant fake a smile all the time, that is not what positive thinking is about..... its not being happy all the time. You can allow yourself to scream, cry and get angry... but still not give up. Not let the negativity take over, even if you need a few moments to just think "wow everything sucks right now", but then get back on track soon where you begin to see the positives and how you can change things so they get better!!
Mind set is key, and mindset is everything. If you think everything sucks, well then it will.... but if you think, things can get better... then they will!!! Believe you can, believe you can make a change and then you can :)

Not everyone believes in positive thinking, some think its fake... and sure, sometimes you need to go out of your way to find something positive, but i think "why not? its not doing anyone harm". And if positive thinking bothers you or you find people who always try to be positive annoying then ask yourself why..... they arent doing anyone harm. And even if at times it might seem fake, maybe that is what the person needs right then.... to fake some positivity and happiness to eventually be able to make it real!!!

Try thinking positive. Think about the changes you can make to make things better. Think positive about yourself and your life.... try it each day and it will get easier. Just one positive thought about yourself, your situation, your life can make things feel a little bit better :)


  1. I can't believe people would criticize someone trying to find the good in life and be positive?! That's just daft. Probably stems from jealousy. I have really dark days / times when I really struggle to find the light and the positives, but I am always trying to!
    As long as you're not kidding yourself and ignoring any problems (which I don't think you are/do) then it's all got to be a good thing!
    Keep it up! :)
    As ever, thank you - you're fab! xx

    1. As long as you try, that is the best :) And you are very right, as long as i dont try to be dishonest to myself, then trying to be positive and not "faking it" to myself either.

  2. Being able to find a positive in a not so good situation is definitely an asset and I think its great that you are so positive. I try, don`t always succeed though but it does make me feel better to make myself look at things differently.
    I`m all for it and I don`t think you`re` fake either. Whats the point in dwelling in misery when you can make yourself a bit happier?

    1. Exactly!! Being negative and always thinking negative wont get you far, so instead trying to find the positives. Though sometimes all you need is to allow yourself to be negative for a little while, but then back to positivity!