Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at:


Friday, January 29, 2016

During the toughest of times in recovery, you need motivation to keep going

At times it can be hard to choose recovery, or well that is an understatment.... it can be extremely difficult to choose recovery. You know you should, but it doesnt feel worth it, or it feels scary or you dont feel ready. But at times like this you need motivation, you need your reason to recover... your own goal. You need to want to recover for yourself.  But there are so many positives to recovering..... infact, i dont know if there are any positives about being - or staying sick.

Below are some reasons to recover from your eating disorder.

Having normal hunger and fullness feelings and being able to listen to them
Being able to eat food that you are craving and not feel guilty, just enjoy the food.
Being able to live life with all the energy you have
Having energy
Feeling happy
Having goals and dreams
Being able to reach your goals
Being able to think clearly and think about other things than food, exercise, calories (etc etc)
Being able to make rational decisions, and not be influenced by the voice in your head that can make you make choices you dont want to.
Being able to be spontaneous, even if it might not be an everyday thing
Not feeling guilty for eating
Being able to eat with others and enjoy food
Having a life and living, not just surviving
Not having to eat in secret
Not having to walk around with lots of guilt and anxiety over things your eating disorder makes you do
Not compensating for eating - and in turn, not feeling guilty because you have or havent compensated.
To be able to go to school and learn and remember
To be able to read and concentrate again
To be able to bake or cook food and enjoy what you make
Stronger bones
Healthy hair, skin and nails
Being able to have kids in the future
Being able to grow up and experience more
To be able to love yourself
To be able to love others
To feel beautiful
To not let your stomach or any other part of your body define you
To not let a number on the scale define you
To be able to go clothes shopping and not care about size or cry in the dressing rooms
To not care about the number on the scale
To not spend all your time counting calories or weighing food
Not being cold all the time

These are just some of the positives and reasons to recover. Of course, it also means fully recovering from an eating disorder - which is possible. But if you are still in half recovery/half recovered then you might not reach these goals/freedom... you might still be caught up with compensation, food, anxiety, self hatred etc But you can be free from those things. But it is a process which takes time.... which means you go against your eating disorder and go against those things keeping you back from true recovery.

You need reasons and motivations to keep you going. Reasons to make you fight even through the toughest of time.

So...  What are YOUR reasons to recover? What goals do you want to reach?


  1. Thanks for posting this - just what I needed to read today. I am fighting an uphill battle at the moment and just about hanging in there, so it was so good to see these reminders.

    1. Stay strong and keep fighting!!! You can get through this <3